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Feeling Melancholy…Feeling My Boy…

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Storm Clouds Over The Sound – Photo by Toni Roberts

 

cloudy

foggy

misty

beautiful

 

the kind of day

my

beloved grandson

preferred…

 

reflections

of his

state of being

 

what a shame he cannot be

here-now

 with his

Nana…

 

sharing the

glory

of

being

   human

 

feeling melancholy…

 feeling my boy…

 

 

More:

http://www.fineartamerica.com/artist/toni+roberts

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Thinking About Love Again Today…

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Skyline: Hutchinson River & Long Island Sound – Photo by Toni Roberts

wondering why our love was not enough to keep

beloved grandson

here

in this

   flesh life

came to the  realization

that human love is simply not enough

to keep the

soul

wedded

to

human flesh

for without that

   Essential Ingredient

that everlasting influx of

   LOVE…

of the

DIVINE KIND…

these flesh suits we wear are merely

empty

sacks

of

meaningless

   protoplasm

Toni Roberts’ art and photography may be viewed and purchased at:

http://www.fineartamerica/toniroberts

http://toniroberts.imagekind.com

http://www.facebook.com/designsbytoniroberts

In Celebration Of The Winter Solstice…Season of Death And Re-birth…

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The Davin Collage: Journey to Manhood; A Visual Portrait of the Life of Davin Adonis Roberts by His Grandmother, Toni Roberts

 

If parents are not supposed to lose children

Then grandparents

Sure as

Hell

Should not have to lose a grandchild!

As I’ve lost my

Beloved Davin

   But…

You know what?

This is life in a human-created world

And in a human-created world

SHIT HAPPENS

And so today

As I sit here in celebration of my

78th Year

In this human-created world

I turn my attention from

Death

To the Re-birth theme of this

Holy Season

And to the welcoming of my

New grandchild

Who has chosen to enter this world on

The day of Her Nana’s Birth!

Tis’ indeed

A Time of Letting Go

As I welcome New Life into the Family…

   Anyway…who knows?

LIFE

   Is very tricky sometimes…

   Perhaps…

   Just…perhaps…

The arrival of my new

Beloved

On the day of my own birth

is a sign from my

Dearly Departed

that

   He’s back…

  

I Am Learning To Lean Into…

Awakening; Artwork and Photo by Toni Roberts

Awakening; Artwork and Photo by Toni Roberts

the

    pain…   

to fully

feel

   grief...

   sadness...

to let it

wash

through

   me

leaving me

   cleansed

   purified

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography are available at:

http://www.cafepress.com/DaughtersofGaia

http://www.cafepress.com/orishatreasures

http://www.fineartamerica.com/art/all/toni+roberts/all

http://toniroberts.imagekind.com