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Archive for the ‘“Let go and let ‘God'”’ Category

Reacting VS Responding…

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Yemaya At Work – Photo by Toni Roberts

Today

   For the first time…

      I saw the choice so clearly:

I can continue

Reacting to negative people…events and circumstances

From my place of

   OLD…UNHEALED…EMOTIONAL WOUNDS…

In that so

   HUMAN WAY…

   or…

I can rise above the residue of pain from events long past

And

CHOOSE

 to lift up my

   CONSCIOUSNESS…

ALLOWING

An

   EVER-PRESENT…

   APPROPRIATE…

And

HEALING RESPONSE

To

Unfold

Naturally

   On ITS own…

    In

   As

And

      Through…

 My every

   Thought…

   Word…

   Action

I Seek Within…

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Winter On My Block – Photo by Toni Roberts

and find

both the

courage

and the

trust

to take

one

more

step

   forward…

into

the

   unknown

Today, I Am Learning…

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Bridges Opening Over Hutchinson River/Long Island Sound – Photo by Toni Roberts

to live in

peace

balance

and

harmony

despite the

doubt

confusion

and

   uncertainty

   inherent in the living of human life on planet earth…

for therein lay the only path to:

health

vitality

and

joy

in the full

ex-pression

of

    BEING…

from the

   inside…

   out

I Am Learning To Lean Into…

Awakening; Artwork and Photo by Toni Roberts

Awakening; Artwork and Photo by Toni Roberts

the

    pain…   

to fully

feel

   grief...

   sadness...

to let it

wash

through

   me

leaving me

   cleansed

   purified

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Since I Now Know…

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Photo by Toni Roberts

 

that the

answer

is contained

within the

   question…

   I simply

ask…

   lean back…

   relax…

and say

YES

to the

      LETTING GO ENERGY…

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On Death By Suicide…

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River…Post-Davin; photo by Toni Roberts; copyright 2016

the loss of my beloved grandson

who last month

at the tender age of twenty-one

exercised

free will

his by divine right

and chose to exit this world quickly…

via a bullet to the head...

Got me thinking about

death by suicide…

and how all humans leave this realm

via death by suicide

   consciously…by their own hand

or unconsciously…

blaming their leave-taking on Fate or “God…”

forgetting that we are all creatures of

free will

   and that nothing

not even death is imposed upon us by some

mysterious all-powerful Force

It is we who knowingly or unknowingly

create these painful, ghastly, unimaginable  dis-eases

that debilitate and devour our our bodies

system by system…

organ by organ…

in a slow death by suicide...

Indeed…by the use or misuse of free will…

all death is by our daily decisions and choices

although my heart breaks at the thought of the degree of unendurable psychic pain

that drove my beloved to so quickly end this earthly sojourn…

this shared here-now…

I grant him his right of

conscious exercise of 

free-will…

And I here-now bless the Essence of the boy-man I so loved

on Its continued journey

Spent All Day Photographing The River And…

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Photo by Toni Roberts 1/16/16

   weeping...

releasing deep pain

I didn’t know remained

      within

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Photo by Toni Roberts 1/16/16

probably brushing it aside

in prayer and meditation

   whenever it came up…

as if the release of psychic pain

   is not an ongoing job…

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Photo by Toni Roberts 1/16/16

   and so…

I have given myself this entire week

   OFF…

Saturday to Saturday

vacation

retreat

seclusion

no business

   no telephone calls…

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Photo by Toni Roberts 1/16/16

 

   just the

   river

   my

   tears…

and

this profound sense of

   mourning

for whom?

or what?

   can’t name it…

   only know that a part of me…

a

heavy load

I’ve carried deep within my heart

since the beginning of

   memory

   can now be released…

during this week of

vacation

retreat

   letting go...

this week of

   death…

and

    dying things

On Death…Dying…And Diseases Of Old Age…

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as I reach another fork in the road

it occurs to me that

old age…aging…

diseases of old age

   and all that

   stuff

are mere

illusions

of

collective human creation

and although it saddens me

to lose beloved friends and lifelong companions who

one by one

are buying into to the

   myth…

   I refuse to follow them…

and thus

I find myself

alone

and once again at

   another fork in the road...

   do I go left…

joining my loved ones

who now drag worn and tired bodies

down the known paths of:

old age…disease…death

or

do I veer right

only to find myself once again

treading the

lonely dark path

of

the unknown

with only

hope

prayer

faith

and

trust in the invisible

to light my way to

continued health

vigor

ceaseless renewal

beauty

peace

endless creativity

and the

ultimate fulfillment

of my

purpose

in

   being

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography May Be Viewed & Purchased at:

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The Sweet Balm Of Surrender…

Photo by Toni Roberts

Photo by Toni Roberts

I am bathed in serenity

In the sweet balm of surrender

To that which knows

From whence I came

   And why…

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography May Be Viewed & Purchased at:

 http://www.cafepress.com/DaughtersofGaia

http://www.cafepress.com/orishatreasures

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Once Again At Another Fork In The Road…

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Do I go

Right?

And perhaps find myself once again

Walking the path of

Same ol’…Same ol’

Repeating the mistakes of yesteryear?

   Or…

Do I venture off to the

Left?

What does my heart say?

Which is the path that Spirit would have me tread?

I close my eyes and

Count to three

For this is a place of

Radical Trust

Where I must put aside all

Rational thought

and

   Allow my heart to direct my feet

   Step by very careful step

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography May Be Viewed & Purchased at:

 http://www.cafepress.com/DaughtersofGaia

http://www.cafepress.com/orishatreasures

http://www.fineartamerica.com/art/all/toni+roberts/all

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