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Was This Not…

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Rainy Day Altar – Photo by Toni Roberts

an even more delicious day

   than the sunshine and calm blue skies of yesterday?

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Indoors On A Rainy Day – Photo by Toni Roberts

this

glorious

today

with

noisy splatters of raindrops

and

boisterous winds

intruding upon the

SILENCE

of  my

   SACRED SPACE

blow!

Oya

clear away the debris that clogs the mind and soul

whip up the waters!

cleanse this vessel!

ready it for the

Holy Work

   for which the Soul has come

Rainy Days And Sundays…

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Poder Feminina Africana*  – Photo by Toni Roberts

always wake me up!

*African Feminine Power

Reacting VS Responding…

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Yemaya At Work – Photo by Toni Roberts

Today

   For the first time…

      I saw the choice so clearly:

I can continue

Reacting to negative people…events and circumstances

From my place of

   OLD…UNHEALED…EMOTIONAL WOUNDS…

In that so

   HUMAN WAY…

   or…

I can rise above the residue of pain from events long past

And

CHOOSE

 to lift up my

   CONSCIOUSNESS…

ALLOWING

An

   EVER-PRESENT…

   APPROPRIATE…

And

HEALING RESPONSE

To

Unfold

Naturally

   On ITS own…

    In

   As

And

      Through…

 My every

   Thought…

   Word…

   Action

Today I Find MySelf…

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Photo Credit: Patricia Bolivar; 7/9/16 Steps of New Dawn Foundation, New Rochelle, NY

in that place of

BEING

towards which

my entire life

has been a

MOVEMENT

Feelin’ All Boxed-In?

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Man In Box – Washington Square Park, NYC – Summer 2011 – Photo by Toni Roberts

      Remember…

The

Way

   Out

Is

   In

Before Entering 2017…

I take this moment to look back over

2016…

 

I focus only on the blessings

The miracles both small and grand

Wrought by Some Great Mystery…

 

Like the miracle of this view…

Twenty stories above the Hutchinson River and Long Island Sound

A $12,000-a-month vista if viewed from a Manhattan High-Rise…

Instead of from a bedroom window in the “Boogie-Down Bronx…”

 

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View from My Window: Hutchinson River & Long Island Sound/Photo by Toni Roberts

 

And the miracle of this spaciouspalatial apartment

That has been totally renovated

Over the past two months…

Right down to the hardwood floors

And brand new kitchen

Whose countertops may be fake granite…but HELL

The entire apartment makeover was

FREE OF CHARGE

 

And so…

I bid adieu to the pain of yesterday…

As I leave my Dearly Departed in peace…

And turn my vision forward on this mysterious journey

Called human life on planet earth…

A journey filled as much with painuncertainty…and confusion

As it is with inexplicable joy and unasked for

Gifts of The Spirit!

 

Adios…

2016!

Y muy bienvenido…

2017!

In Celebration Of The Winter Solstice…Season of Death And Re-birth…

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The Davin Collage: Journey to Manhood; A Visual Portrait of the Life of Davin Adonis Roberts by His Grandmother, Toni Roberts

 

If parents are not supposed to lose children

Then grandparents

Sure as

Hell

Should not have to lose a grandchild!

As I’ve lost my

Beloved Davin

   But…

You know what?

This is life in a human-created world

And in a human-created world

SHIT HAPPENS

And so today

As I sit here in celebration of my

78th Year

In this human-created world

I turn my attention from

Death

To the Re-birth theme of this

Holy Season

And to the welcoming of my

New grandchild

Who has chosen to enter this world on

The day of Her Nana’s Birth!

Tis’ indeed

A Time of Letting Go

As I welcome New Life into the Family…

   Anyway…who knows?

LIFE

   Is very tricky sometimes…

   Perhaps…

   Just…perhaps…

The arrival of my new

Beloved

On the day of my own birth

is a sign from my

Dearly Departed

that

   He’s back…

  

Freedom…

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Photo by Toni Roberts

saying

YES

to the

LETTING GO ENERGY

and simply drifting along with the

everflowing

   WATERS OF LIFE

that’s

   FREEDOM

Today…

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Vassar Campus; Photo by Toni Roberts

 

 

I cease my attempts

to construct a new and different

future

based upon the same

old

blueprints

from the

   past

As I Sat In The Silence Today…

      as I sat listening within…

contemplating the new life that is about to enter the family…

so soon after the suicide of my beloved grandson…

   I heard these words:

“it is

BLOOD

and not the

CHURCH

or

STATE

that determines and defines what is

FAMILY

and the

“RIGHTNESS”

or

APPROPRIATENESS

   of relationships between and among humans…”

such is the strangeness that drifts into consciousness

when one’s mind sits idle and open…

such a re-making of one’s worldview

such a re-seeing of reality

and

re-ordering

of one’s

cultural indoctrinations

such strangeness

born of a mind and heart not engaged in the mindless madness of the world

such an exquisite awareness of what is

REAL

and what is

   NOT

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