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I Am Learning To Lean Into…

Awakening; Artwork and Photo by Toni Roberts

Awakening; Artwork and Photo by Toni Roberts

the

    pain…   

to fully

feel

   grief...

   sadness...

to let it

wash

through

   me

leaving me

   cleansed

   purified

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Gemini Moon…

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Full Moon; Stock Photo

 

   Gemini Moon…

in the fullness of

Your Light

the hidden self

   is revealed…

and as the dark self wanes before

   Your Brilliance…

the

Goddess Self

   expands…

illuminating the world

with the

    Healing Light

of

   Your Love…

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography are available at:

http://www.cafepress.com/DaughtersofGaia

http://www.cafepress.com/orishatreasures

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An Urban Shaman’s Tools Of Transformation…

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New Window Altar; Photo by Toni Roberts

 

she

opens each day with a

CREATIVE ACT

paying homage to the

MOTHER

of

the

     MULTIVERSE…

honoring the

DARKNESS

out of which 

LIFE

   emerges…

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Altar II; Photo by Toni Roberts

 

 the

shaman

plants...

   cooks

and

   waits patiently

   cleansing

   selfnourishing…

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Waxing, Crescent Moon; Stock Photograph

 

while

MOTHER MOON

fills with

LIGHT

from

HER HEAVENLY LOVER

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Altar III; Photo by Toni Roberts

 

the

shaman

takes her cues from

   within…

   never leading…

   ever-following…

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Altar IV; Photo by Toni Roberts

   in

complete surrender

and

   at-one-ment…

 

 

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography are available at:

http://www.cafepress.com/DaughtersofGaia

http://www.cafepress.com/orishatreasures

http://www.fineartamerica.com/art/all/toni+roberts/all

http://toniroberts.imagekind.com

Breathing In With The Waxing, Crescent Moon…

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May 9, 2016…14% Waxing, Crescent Moon; Stock Photograph

   I must remember…

this is the time of the

  in-breath…

of filling up with

   Light…

   of taking in…

   strengthening…

   building up…

   restoring…

 a time of  regeneration… 

the time of the

out-breath

shall return with the

fullness of Mother Moon

It will then be my time return to the world

   empowered…

ready to

   build…create

slay dragons…

but for now…I focus on the

   in-breath…taking in…

resisting the temptation of trying

to carry my dreams from

imagination to physical form

by

dint

of

human power

   alone…

yes…

the time for action will come

   but for now…

the

    in-breath

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography are available at:

http://www.cafepress.com/DaughtersofGaia

http://www.cafepress.com/orishatreasures

http://www.fineartamerica.com/art/all/toni+roberts/all

http://toniroberts.imagekind.com

On Death By Suicide…

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River…Post-Davin; photo by Toni Roberts; copyright 2016

the loss of my beloved grandson

who last month

at the tender age of twenty-one

exercised

free will

his by divine right

and chose to exit this world quickly…

via a bullet to the head...

Got me thinking about

death by suicide…

and how all humans leave this realm

via death by suicide

   consciously…by their own hand

or unconsciously…

blaming their leave-taking on Fate or “God…”

forgetting that we are all creatures of

free will

   and that nothing

not even death is imposed upon us by some

mysterious all-powerful Force

It is we who knowingly or unknowingly

create these painful, ghastly, unimaginable  dis-eases

that debilitate and devour our our bodies

system by system…

organ by organ…

in a slow death by suicide...

Indeed…by the use or misuse of free will…

all death is by our daily decisions and choices

although my heart breaks at the thought of the degree of unendurable psychic pain

that drove my beloved to so quickly end this earthly sojourn…

this shared here-now…

I grant him his right of

conscious exercise of 

free-will…

And I here-now bless the Essence of the boy-man I so loved

on Its continued journey

Retreat…4th Day…Jesus…Master Teacher…

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river 5 14 2014

 

Incoming Words from the Master Teacher:

“…And in all your seeking

Seek ye wisdom and understanding”

“…And all else shall be added

Unto you…”

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river two 5 14 2014

Bottom-Line Formula for Creation:

Thought/Intention/”Word”

+

E-motion

=

New Reality

Another Dawn of Understanding…

bringing of the dawn

bringing of the dawn

 

learning how to sit with discomfort

without trying to change it into comfort

instead…

asking it…

what have you come to teach me?

what is it I need to see?

understand…?

accept and integrate into

Self?

discovering that I can use tools…

such as the I Ching of the Goddess or

the Tarot

or…

I can sit quietly

in the Silence of my being

and soon

She Who Dwells in the Deep

begins speaking…

my readied pen moves speedily

upon the blank pages of my journal…

words tumbling forth

faster than the pen can capture…

words springing forth from

a place beyond everyday consciousness…

words that will become my guide-map

for future days of my life…

words that return me to a basic tenant of this Life:

the tribulations of this world are overcome

only insofar as one releases them…

After The Rain…Light…Understanding…

after the rain...

after the rain…

 

Instead of drumming this Saturday, I spent quiet time at my window altar–with the river.

Rising above the chatter of my “monkey brain,” I sat in the peaceful silence of my rain-washed world–listening within:

This drumming, my dear–just like the words that you write–comes through you. You, the ego-personality, are not the owner of your creative productions. The words, and sounds come through you from a Source that also determines the why, what, when, where and how of it all.

Do not attempt to order your gifts; trying to determine whence they come and go.

Life is not yours to order. It is yours to remain open, receptive and in service to That Which lies behind, beneath, above and at each side of all form. 

You are learning to understand–and more importantly–to accept and live a reality which is the only authentic Reality there is.

It is a process of opening the heart in trust and releasing the pain you did not know was there.

It is truly living from the inside out: letting your 3-D world unfold in, as and through you; bypassing the ego.

It is not the human way  of being. 

It is a process of “un-conditioning” the mind.

Have patience with yourself.

I am with you.

We are with you.

Meditation on a Rainy Day

watching the river flow

watching the river flow

Perhaps today I will just sit and watch the river flow…

here in the warmth and safety of my sacred space

watching Ochun flow lazily twenty stories below.

She rolls calmly,

sensually

upriver…

taking her time…

refusing to be rushed by the blustering winds and

beating rain

that try to hurry her along.

So peacefully she flows…

self-contained joy in motion.

Yes.

Today I shall just sit and commune with my

Sister, Ochun.

Perhaps tomorrow I shall fill these pages with her

secret

whisperings…

Revelations…

Rose Cross

Rose Cross

the how will always appear as part of the package…

your job is to cast the design in consciousness…

then remain alert

inwardly focused

aware

open

receptive

maintain your  YIN

position…

action will then flow naturally

from the inside out…

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