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When Life Seems To Be Pushing Against Me…

 

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Against All Odds…

and I am all hemmed in and don’t know what to do…

where to go…

which way to turn…

who to listen to…

what to choose…

I

then

follow

my

heart

my

joy

and

I

am

never

disappointed

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The Journey From Bruja To Goddess…

Portrait of the Artist – Collage/Photograph by Toni Roberts

When we first begin to awaken, we BrujasWomen of GodGoddesses and Divine Feminine Beings, we realize that this 3-D “reality” is not static…unbending or unyielding to our human will; and that we not only influence what becomes form but can actually “will” or “create” with our minds what becomes form—much to the ego’s delight.

Years are then spent manipulating our reality plus the realities of those who come to us in droves, paying us cold hard cash to manipulate their realities for them and/or teach them how to smooth out the rough spots in their own lives, i.e., lack of money, no lover, horrible lover, terrible job and on and on and on.

Finally, if we are not too ego-maniacal, we tire of creating and recreating the same nonsense over and over again, never finding that deep, soul-satisfying and lasting human scenario that would make living in this third dimension truly meaningful, purposeful and fulfilling. And that is when the ego begins the process of awakening to itself and to the falseness of its self-appointed ruler-ship of our being. Thus, begins the slow and painful death of the ego’s rule and the emergence of the rule of The Divine Feminine (or, what I, affectionately refer to as: La Diosa Adentro) which has lain hidden all of one’s life, in a secret fold of the heart; waiting for just this season of change…this death and rebirth that comes before the Resurrection of Inner Wisdom, Knowledge and Understanding: the beginning of one’s Sacred Role of Service to one’s “tribe” and to humanity in general.

Thus, in the sunset years of our lives, we become Brujas AncianasWise WomenTribal EldersGoddesses-in-the-flesh and the real Holy Work and purpose of this journey to the here-now begins to unfold inthrough and as all that we are and do…in these temporary and temporal roles of human beings on planet earth. Aşe.

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My Heart Is…

Woman At Crossroads – Artwork & Photography by Toni Roberts

the

meeting place

of my

brain

and

   gut

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A New Creation Tale For Our Times…

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A Gathering Of The Ladies – Altar Arrangement & Photograph by Toni Roberts

(From time to time, as I look out upon my world, I think: It’s time again for A New Creation Tale. And I dig out a fable I wrote a few years ago during troubled times like these through which we are currently living—although I cannot quite remember any other times in my almost eighty years of life in these United States of America, quite like these “Trump” years.)

 

Part One

Once upon a time, many long eons ago, longer than the human imagination can conjure, there lived on earth a Wise Being. This Wise Being had been roaming the earth for what seemed to Herforever. In fact, the earliest memory the Wise Being had…was that of being a Wise Being roaming the Earth.

Even though the Wise Being was very tired of being alone, She definitely was not lonely, for She had many, many friends scattered throughout the earth; creatures of every imaginable size and nature.

There were the humongous Ice-o-poids of the North who lived in magnificent castles of ice sparkling crystal-like in the midday sun.

In the South were the splendid Maternoids: huge, dusky pulsations of the most pleasant emotions. The Maternoids spent their days and nights in eternal peace; building reflections of their Inner Splendor upon the earth.

The Mentaloids of the East were also friends of the Wise Being. She spent many a moonlit night in the company of these great creatures of Light, Her Mind joined with theirs in glorious and Holy Communion with the Creatress of all there is ever was or can be.

And when in the West, the Wise Being adapted to the ways of the Earthoids; co-existing among them as they worked the raw elements of the earth into magnificent edifices in which to worship the Creatress.

♀♀♀

One day, due to Her great sadness at being alone and one-of-a-kind among all the other earth creatures, the Wise Being decided to journey to the Land of the Creatress in order to request a Companion.

Anything…anything at all that the Wise Being or the earth creatures requested from the Creatress was theirs for the asking. However, it was no simple matter to journey to the Land of the Creatress to make the request.

The Wise Being first reclined upon Her Grand Bed and summoned Her pride of huge, black, panther-like creatures who immediately formed a protective circle around their Mistresses bed. There they would remain—fierce, silent sentinels guarding the flesh Body of their Lady as Her Spirit journeyed far beyond the mental realms.

Confident that Her Body was safe, the Wise Being could now focus all of Her attention upon Her creature friends scattered around the earth. After a short period, She was able to make mental contact with them, explaining to Her beloved creatures that She would be absent from their lives for a short while. The Wise Being’s heart pained as the creatures cried out in alarm, “How will we exist without Your Presence and Wise Counsel?”

The Wise Being assured all Her earth companions that they would manage quite well for the short time of Her absence.

“Although I love all of you most dearly,” She explained, “And I derive the greatest pleasure living among you, something is missing for Me. I watch you as you join in Joyful Holy Union, multiplying your likenesses upon our earth…and I am saddened…for I have no Companion…none of my Kind with whom I may lay and multiply.”

No further explanation was needed. The creatures of the earth told the Wise Being that they most certainly understood Her need. For how could one survive without Joyful Holy Union? They blessed Her and wished Her well on Her journey to the Land of the Creatress of All.

With Her Mind thus freed and cleared of all earthly responsibilities and concerns, the Wise Being began Her journey. She continued envisioning HerSelf moving among Her beloved earth creatures, sharing the beauty of their varied lives and lands. Great joy and love for Her beloved friends welled up within Her Heart. The Wise Being’s vision of the creatures and the beauty of their lands grew so clear and powerful, that a part of Who She Was drifted from Her Body to walk among Her friends—many of whom were able to see Her Presence even though Her Body remained stretched out upon Her Bed under the watchful eyes of her animal protectors.

The Wise Being pushed Her Powers of Imagination further and further; “imaging” a Companion who walked at Her Side as She roamed the far reaches of the earth. She allowed Herself to feel the Love, Joy and Delight emanating from this Magnificent Being of Her Own Creation as She introduced Him to the Sensual Splendors of the earth.

Her Companion finally reached for Hertouched Her

The explosiveness of His Touch was all it took to jar Her Essence free of all earthly constraints.

Thus, began the Wise Being’s Journey to the Land of the Creatress.

♀♀♀

She traveled far into the vast, dark recesses of the multiverse, flying past many strange and unknown worlds which She was sorely tempted to explore. But being the Wise Being that She was, She kept to the goal of Her Journey and did not divert Her Attention to the many temptations along the Way. After soaring through countless realms beyond Time and Space, our Heroine finally arrives at the Throne of the Creatress. The Wise Being knew that She had arrived at Her Destination when She encountered a Light so bright, She could not gaze upon It.

A great voice boomed from the center of the Light: “keeper of the earth, how may We serve you?”

Most Holy One,” the Wise Being responded, “I have come to make a request.”

“Speak up, my child; be assured that whatever you need for our beloved earth and its creatures is yours for the asking.”

“It is not for the earth and its creatures that I come, Most High, but for me.”

“You are at the Source, my daughter, you well know that whatever you desire is immediately available to you. I only caution that you be sure of your desire before you speak it. Remember—The Word is Law.

“My desire…my need is for a CompanionOne of My Kind—with whom I may join in Joyful Holy Union and thus multiply and spread my Likeness throughout the earth as do the creatures.”

“And so, it is done,” the Creatress replied. “Return now to the earth.”

The Wise Being thanked Her Holy Mother and journeyed back to earth; once again having to resist the many diversions of limitless realms on the return trip.

♀♀♀

Upon Her return, there was Her Companion—lying there beside Her. So thrilled and delighted was She—and much to the embarrassment of Her great feline companions—who slinked away unnoticed—the Wise Being began showering Her Companion with greedy kisses and hungry embraces.

After two days and nights of Joyful Holy Union, the Lovers traveled the earth in merry companionship; guiding the earth creatures with renewed love and wisdom as the first civilizations were laid down upon the planet.

The Divine Couple eventually produced four beautiful Daughters from Their many, many, many Joyful Holy Unions.

 

Part Two

One day, as was expected, the Wise Being and Her Consort were summoned by the Creatress. It appeared that the Wise Being’s Work on earth was done. She was now needed in another part of the multiverse to help establish a new world. The Couple left Their four Daughters on earth where each settled in one of the four Lands of the earth, taking an earth creature as mate and companion. The Daughters of the Wise Being and Her Holy Consort subsequently gave birth to many more Daughters, who, in turn, married earth creatures and produced many, many, many more Daughters down through the Ages to this very day.

The earth is now filled with the descendant daughters of the daughters of the Daughters of the Daughters of the Wise Being and Her Holy Consort. They are everywhere. And although you cannot know them by the color of their skin, the shape of their noses or by the languages they speak—for they are of all nations and cultures. Rest assured…they are here among us.

So, fear naught, even as the warriors rant, rave, make war and reign death and destruction upon the earth and its peoples…threatening the very planet with annihilation. Worry not as the military-prison-pharmaceutical-industrial captains defile and pollute our beloved Gaia.

Be at peace and of goodwill during the madness, for the daughters of the Wise Being are rapidly awakening from centuries-long sleep. They are coming into the wisdom, knowledge and understanding of who they are and why they are here-now.

And before irreparable damage can be done, the awakened daughters of the Wise Being will band together, sister with sister in a global network…and guided by Their Ancient Mother, they will restore upon the earth—and upon all its creatures—the Peace, Love, Beauty, Justice and Harmony that prevailed in the beginning…when the Holy Mother reigned

The end…For now…

(Copyright 2013 by Toni Roberts)

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Mother Mary…”La Virgen”…Brings Healing Into Your Home…

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Mother Mary – Healing Goddess – Altar Arrangement & Photo by Toni Roberts

 

The Virgin Mother of Christianity looks over and blesses all women for we women are the bringers of Life onto the planet. Prayers dedicated to “La Virgen” do not go unanswered regardless of one’s professed religion or lack thereof. I know. I’ve “tested” Her; and this Goddess-Mother has never let me down! Bring Her into your home and create Sacred Prayer Space in any room.

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Goddess Bless!

Toni Roberts

“Woman At Crossroads”

Woman At Crossroads – Artwork/Photography by Toni Roberts

 

” Woman At Crossroads” –There are those times in all of our lives when we come to a Crossroad…do I go left or right? This job or that one? Chemo or no chemo? Live or die?

You would think that after 79 years of living this human drama, a woman would be spared life’s complexities and dilemmas. That one’s sunset years could be spent in play; drumming, dancing on the summer grass, experiencing only the joys of life…loving…simply being…

That’s not the way of this journey in the Third Dimension. And I am finally learning to embrace Life’s challenges; to welcome each Crossroad, regardless of how challenging a choice I must make as I continue on this twisting, winding journey of unexpected events, people and circumstances.

These days, when I reach that inevitable Fork In The Road, I find my Spirit Companions right there waiting for me. Mother Goddess, my Guardian Angel, my Orisha, Elegua…and Love ItSelf. Right there in the Silence of my heart…waiting for me to ask: Which Path is my path to Fulfillment of Purpose in being in this Here-Now? All it takes is the asking. The acknowledgement that I DO NOT KNOW. And in that surrender to a Wisdom higher than my human Ego, I am led; step by step, day by day, breath by breath into a new and expanded experience of being human on planet earth.

Let us never forget that the Ancestors are always here to guide us. We need only to stop pretending that we have the answers…and ASK. Ashe.

 

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Life Is A Process…And “God” Is Who I Am…

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Healing Altar – Photo by Toni Roberts

Sitting at my Healing Altar in my Sacred Space is a daily ritual. Were it not for the time spent each day sitting in the Silence surrounded by my Companions-in-Spirit, I would surely be a mad woman. As it is, this daily ritual anchors me to the Divine within; and sets the Tone and Energy of my day. And each day, one step at a time, I move slowly towards total and complete At-One-Ment with That Which Causes All There Is Into Being. I am learning that life is a process and that “God” is who I am.

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Today, I Surrender…

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Yemaya! Mother of the Fishes – Photo by Toni Roberts

 

my need to

UNDERSTAND

my need to make

ORDER

out

of

CHAOS

 

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Slowly But Surely…

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Long Island Sound; Photo by Toni Roberts

 

I am learning to surrender

personal dreams

ambitions

and

desires of the flesh

to

a

HIGHER CONSCIOUSNESS…THE GREAT MYSTERY…THE COSMIC SOUP…GOD…ALLAH…THE FATHER…THE GREAT MOTHER…THE COSMIC WOMB…THE FORCE…KRISHNA…JESUS…A HIGHER POWER…THE MOTHER/FATHER…THE GODDESS…

WHATEVER…

IT

is

that gives

form

and

substance

to

this

3-D-DRAMA

called: Human Life on Planet Earth

 

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This Day…

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Patience…Endurance…  Central Park, NYC – Photo by Toni Roberts

I practice

PATIENCE

and

ENDURANCE

 

in

SWEET SURRENDER

to

an

INNER DIRECTIVE

 

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