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It Is The Letting Go…

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Surrender – Pencil Drawing/Photo by Toni Roberts

of all that one holds as

      TRUTH…

and

   REALITY

it is the learning to be

   IN…

but not

   OF…

this

MAN-MADE

world…

it is the

TOTAL

SURRENDER

to that which one cannot

touch

taste

smell

or

   see

and can only

hear

as a faint

echo

within one’s

   HEART

these are but a

sprinkling

of the

difficulties

one encounters

upon the

JOURNEY

to

   WHOLENESS

so be ye of strong

SPIRIT

and great

COURAGE

as ye embark upon this

   SACRED

INNER

   PATH

 

As I Sat In The Silence Today…

      as I sat listening within…

contemplating the new life that is about to enter the family…

so soon after the suicide of my beloved grandson…

   I heard these words:

“it is

BLOOD

and not the

CHURCH

or

STATE

that determines and defines what is

FAMILY

and the

“RIGHTNESS”

or

APPROPRIATENESS

   of relationships between and among humans…”

such is the strangeness that drifts into consciousness

when one’s mind sits idle and open…

such a re-making of one’s worldview

such a re-seeing of reality

and

re-ordering

of one’s

cultural indoctrinations

such strangeness

born of a mind and heart not engaged in the mindless madness of the world

such an exquisite awareness of what is

REAL

and what is

   NOT

I’ve Finally Cracked The Great Mystery…And Gained Mastery Over The Torments And Enigmas Of This Human Existence…

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Daughters of Gaia; collage/photo by Toni Roberts

 

I’ve reached

the

bottom-line

of

bottom-lines…

I’ve found

the

   WAY:

     SIT DOWN…SHUT UP

and

   LISTEN…

      for the only way to

KNOWLEDGE

is via the

      INNER PATHWAY…

the way of the

   HEART…

THE WAY

   OUT

        IS ALWAYS…

       IN…

As I Sit Here In Contemplation Of My Navel…

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“The Land,” The Berkshires, MA; Photo Seven by Toni Roberts

it’s beginning to dawn on me

through these recent days of

joy-mixed-pain

that there is no such thing as

good

or

bad

     in the events of life…

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“The Land,” The Berkshires, MA; Photo by Toni Roberts

 

   it’s simply that…

shit happens so that other shit can happen

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“The Land,” The Berkshires, MA; photo by Toni Roberts

LIFE

does nothing

to

   us…

only

for

   us…

and as trite as it may sound:

everything

comes

to

    pass

 

 

 

Sitting…Breathing…Waiting…Listening…

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Sunset on the Hutchinson River…photo by Toni Roberts

none

of

   it…

not one moment of the entire

77

years

of

it

was ever about

the

writing

or

the

   doing...

it was

 always…

in

all

  ways…

solely

about the

   being...

about the

experience

itself…

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography are available at:

http://www.cafepress.com/DaughtersofGaia

http://www.cafepress.com/orishatreasures

http://www.fineartamerica.com/art/all/toni+roberts/all

http://toniroberts.imagekind.com

In Other Words…

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Photo by Toni Roberts

the

question

is the

key

that

opens

the

   door…

once the question has been asked

the questioner must remain

   silent and alert…

so as not to miss the opportunity...

   once the door swings open…

to enter a heretofore

   dark…

   hidden…

   unexplored…

room

of

the

   mansion…

a room filled to capacity with

un-imagined

treasures…

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography are available at:

http://www.cafepress.com/DaughtersofGaia

http://www.cafepress.com/orishatreasures

http://www.fineartamerica.com/art/all/toni+roberts/all

http://toniroberts.imagekind.com

Since I Now Know…

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Photo by Toni Roberts

 

that the

answer

is contained

within the

   question…

   I simply

ask…

   lean back…

   relax…

and say

YES

to the

      LETTING GO ENERGY…

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography are available at:

http://www.cafepress.com/DaughtersofGaia

http://www.cafepress.com/orishatreasures

http://www.fineartamerica.com/art/all/toni+roberts/all

http://toniroberts.imagekind.com

I Am Slowly Learning…

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Hutchinson River, Bx., NY; Photo by Toni Roberts

to stop trying to push

the rivers of my life…

   to simply let them

flow

as

they

    will…

   arriving at their own destinations…

   unfolding in their own time…

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography are available at:

http://www.cafepress.com/DaughtersofGaia

http://www.cafepress.com/orishatreasures

http://www.fineartamerica.com/art/all/toni+roberts/all

http://toniroberts.imagekind.com

SURRENDER…Part Two…

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Photo by Toni Roberts Central Park, NYC

 

   SURRENDER…

complete

absolute

   total…

the only intelligent thing to do

when caught

broken

weeping

and

powerless

between a rock and a hard place

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography May Be Viewed & Purchased at:

http://www.cafepress.com/DaughtersofGaia

http://www.cafepress.com/orishatreasures

http://www.fineartamerica.com/art/all/toni+roberts/all

http://toniroberts.imagekind.com

On Death By Suicide…

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River…Post-Davin; photo by Toni Roberts; copyright 2016

the loss of my beloved grandson

who last month

at the tender age of twenty-one

exercised

free will

his by divine right

and chose to exit this world quickly…

via a bullet to the head...

Got me thinking about

death by suicide…

and how all humans leave this realm

via death by suicide

   consciously…by their own hand

or unconsciously…

blaming their leave-taking on Fate or “God…”

forgetting that we are all creatures of

free will

   and that nothing

not even death is imposed upon us by some

mysterious all-powerful Force

It is we who knowingly or unknowingly

create these painful, ghastly, unimaginable  dis-eases

that debilitate and devour our our bodies

system by system…

organ by organ…

in a slow death by suicide...

Indeed…by the use or misuse of free will…

all death is by our daily decisions and choices

although my heart breaks at the thought of the degree of unendurable psychic pain

that drove my beloved to so quickly end this earthly sojourn…

this shared here-now…

I grant him his right of

conscious exercise of 

free-will…

And I here-now bless the Essence of the boy-man I so loved

on Its continued journey

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