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Another Realization As I Rapidly Approach My 79th Birthday!

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Yemaya Works Her Own Kind Of Magic – Photo by Toni Roberts

Finally…

As the culmination of  79 years in this flesh body rapidly approaches…

 

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If It Weren’t For Grandfather, I’d Still Be Asleep – Photo by Toni Roberts

 

I’m beginning to get a glimmer...

Just a mere glimpse

Of what this HELL called human life on planet earth is TRULY all about…

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Carriers Of The Word…From One Realm To Another – Photo by Toni Roberts 

 

And so I pray that the current

awakening of human consciousness

from its eons of slumber

soon reach

Critical Mass

Lest humanity ultimately destroy itself

from the

ignorance and hubris

so reflected in

America’s 2016 presidential choice

wake up!

time is of the essence!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Yesterday…While Waiting For Buses at Various Bronx Bus Stops…

I decide to search for beauty around me instead of bitching and moaning about the terrible MTA service in the Boogie-Down Bronx; and lo and behold I end up capturing unexpected beauty existing in the midst of the chaos, confusion and heaviness of my surroundings.

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Photo by Toni Roberts

Who would believe that one could find such perfection at the corner of Waters Place and Eastchester Road!? This perfectly manicured lawn totally diverts my attention from the insufferable heat and humidity. Perfect beauty.

 

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Looking Up Through the Trees – Photo by Toni Roberts

There is no shade at the next bus stop so I venture into the tiny wooded area behind it and look up at the pattern of trees against sky…so intricately woven by the Hands of Mother Nature.

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Looking Through The Interwoven Branches Of Sister Trees – Photo by Toni Roberts

Fascinating how the branches of these two trees reach out to intertwine with one another: Sisters bound in love.

 

 

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Light Descending – Photo by Toni Roberts

Much later on; weary, hungry and very much out-of-sorts, I find myself at yet another bus stop with an unbelieveable forty minute wait for that final bus home. The magnificence of the sunset, however, soothes my jangled nerves and eases my body’s aches and pains.

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Fire In The Sky – Photo by Toni Roberts

Is there anything more spectacular than the show Mother Nature puts on each evening?

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Going Out In Blazing Glory – Photo by Toni Roberts

All I could say to this was WOW! What a show!  Keeping me awed, entertained and not homicidal

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The Awakening – Photo by Toni Roberts

Who could experience anything other than peace upon beholding this sky?

The splendor of Nature washes away all impatience and bad temper…

 

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May Peace Be Unto Us – Photo by Toni Roberts

And I rode home in peace.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Mind:

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Flowers On Altar – Photo by Toni Roberts

 

   a

tool

created for use by the

   heart

 

 

See more of Toni Roberts’ Altar Photography:

http://www.cafepress.com/orishatreasures

 

 

 

I Am Beginning To Realize…As In “Make Real…”

Golden Sunset  - Photo by Toni Roberts

Golden Sunset – Photo by Toni Roberts

 

the many

rewards

of 

unquestioning

trusting

obedience

to a

mysterious

nameless

Inner Directive

that places one’s feet

   for one…

step by careful step

along paths both

known

and

   unknown…

 

 

 

More of Toni Roberts’ Work at:

https://www.facebook.com/gaiadaughters

http://www.cafepress.com/DaughtersofGaia

 

 

Today I Am Learning To Be At Peace With…

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Sunset Over the Long Island Sound and Wetlands – Photo by Toni Roberts

the

vastness

of my

   ignorance

 

 

 

More Work by Toni Roberts:

http://toniroberts.imagekind.com

https://www.facebook.com/gaiadaughters

 

 

 

 

 

Today I Am Learning To…

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Storm Clouds Over The Long Island Sound – Photo by Toni Roberts

 

be okay with not knowing or understanding

and simply resting in what is

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Last Stages Of Surrender…

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View From The Window: Hutchinson River & Long Island Sound On A Cloudy Day – Photo by Toni Roberts

 

this

miracle-making

amazing

know-it-all

do-it-all

omnipresent

omniscient

omnipotent

PRESENCE…

that permeates all that is…

 

this

mystical

mysterious

PRESENCE

that I cannot control…

and do not understand…

 

it is to

THIS

 

the

UN-NAMEABLE 

that I now

surrender

allowing

IT

   to possess me…

body

mind

   soul

 

permitting

IT

to

flow

in

through

and

as...

all

that

I AM

letting

IT

manifest

as

FORM

in this

3rd dimension of being...

according to

IT’S

WILL…

and

IT’S

PLAN…

not

   mine

 

 

For more of Toni Roberts’ Work, visit:

http://toniroberts.imagekind.com

https://www.facebook.com/gaiadaughters

http://www.cafepress.com/orishatreasures

http://www.fineartamerica.com/artist/toni+roberts

 

 

 

 

 

The Most Difficult Part Of this Journey…

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“The Land” Up At The Berkshires – Photo Nine by Toni Roberts

or TREK

as some might say…

is the

LETTING…

the

ALLOWING

the

PERMITTING...

in place of the

DOING

 

the necessity of becoming a

participating observer

in one’s own life…

 

 

For more of Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography visit:

http://www.fineartamerica.com/artist/toni+roberts

http://toniroberts.imagekind.com

http://www.facebook.com/designsbytoniroberts

http://www.cafepress.com/orishatreasures

 

Reborn…

 

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Day Two Summer Solstice 2017 – Photo by Toni Roberts

I have torn away the

Veil

I have abandoned the

Dead remnants of the old self

I have surrendered all

Illusion

Of

Control

 

I am the New WomanReborn…Born-Again…and again and again and again…

 

I am Consciously…Deliberately…IrrevocablyAt-One with First-Cause…with the

Creator of Heaven…And the Earth

 

I am the New Woman

Re-Born

Born-Again

Coniunctio…A Poem In Celebration Of The Summer Solstice 2017…

Summer Solstice Altar 2017 - Photo by Toni Roberts

Summer Solstice Altar 2017 – Photo by Toni Roberts

 

(DESCENT OF THE LIGHT)

She, speaking softly

From the folds

Of the wet, dark place

Tells of Her thousand pleasures

 

What perverse misconstruction, asks She

Tells You that I am not The Center?

The Seat of Your Being…of life itself?

Why know You not that Mine is the Passageway to Heaven?

Through Mine Divine Portals

The Breath of Life blows

To scatter Seeds

Of Being…

 

What say You? Asks He

This talk of Holy Entrance?

The Seat of Life?

The Passageway to Heaven?

The Way to Heaven is through Me

What know You of pleasure, indeed?

You, who are bound to earth

To moaning, groaning, writhing and wailing

In ecstasies of the flesh

What know You of the pleasure

Of a bursting star?

Of universes that explode into Being

From molten lava

Which rises from my peak?

 

Fool above

I hear You speak

Know You not the Source

Of the sun-kissed fluid

That ignites within You the spark of Life?

A sad and lifeless sack of dry grey matter

Would You be

Were it not

For Me…

 

Great Slut below,

O Wanton One of earth and flesh

Dare You imply

That rank and reeking place

Where You reside

The Source

Of my sweet elixir of Life?

 

To be sure, My Lord,

That’s what I speak.

Come down to see

How from a thousand ecstasies

Flows the golden fluid

So vital to

Both You and Me…

 

What say You, O’ Fierce and Fearless Ruler

Of the Realm above?

Pierce the dark, warm wetness

Of my Being

With Your shaft of Light

Descend to Me so that I may envelope You

In all the sweetness of my ecstasy

So that I may whisper in Your fair ear

Of a thousand unknown things…

 

Let me wrap my huge, dark loins

About Your stiff, unyielding back

And ride upon You

Waves of endless joy

Pleasure greater than the bursting stars

Of infinite universes

Is Yours to have

For acceptance of my Realm

As the Path to Immortality…

 

Lower Yourself, my Fearless One

Into the deep, dark waters of my Being

Penetrate deeply with the flame

Of your raging passion

Explode within

My

Center

 

Though resist He tries

Her liquid words have set Him

All a quiver

He turns this way, then that

But yet is sucked like shavings by a magnet

Through the Portals

Of Her Secret Place

 

Pray not, He moans

To be forever trapped

In fleshly prison

This Light

That once

Was

I…

 

 

(Note: Copyright 2017 by  Toni Roberts. Originally published by Toni Roberts as “The Fall Of The God” in The Crone Chronicles magazine; 1998)

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