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OBEDIENCE…

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Grandfather and Marley – Photograph by Toni Roberts

is born of  TRUST

 

without TRUST

there can be no OBEDIENCE

for TRUST is the foundation and source out of which

OBEDIENCE  flows

naturally...organicallywithout human thought or effort

Toni Roberts

 

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I know That I Am In Accord With The Cosmos…

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Candle On Altar – Arrangement/Photography by Toni Roberts

when everything in my life falls right into its perfect place…

as if by magic

 

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Today…I Let Every Aspect of My Life…

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Burning Candle On Altar – Photograph by Toni Roberts

 

flow

from

the

INSIDE

OUT

 

   without my supervision

 

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A Bit of Wisdom from a Tribal Elder…

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In Memoriam – Rest In Peace Beloveds – Altar/Photo by Toni Roberts

I have finally learned that when I do not know what to do…

To do nothing

In the past…whenever I impatiently pushed forward out of restlessnessuncertaintyfeardoubt or confusion

Not really knowing WTF

I wound up ultimately creating just another dead-end of darkness, uncertainty and confusion

All over again…

It took me all of these years in the School of Hard Knocks…to finally get it

I now know to sit and breath into the empty gap between what was…and what will be…in calm equanimity…while accepting the Ego’s discomfort…

Until…eventually…the next experience unfolds…naturallyorganicallyinas…and through me…

Without the schemesplans…and self-profiting manipulations of the Ego

Bottom line: every thing…every person…every circumstance…every event….every situation in our lives…just as it is…has come to pass…and will passon its own…and all we have to do…as we used to say in my day…

Is chill

Toni Roberts

 

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Let Us Lay Our Collective Pain At The Altar Of Love…

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Altar of Love – Photograph by Toni Roberts

This Path I’ve chosen to walk is indeed, a “straight and narrow “one!

No longer can I stray onto the familiar side streets of anger and sarcasm: my old defenses…my old way of covering up hurt, disappointment, or emotional pain. All of those feelings that strong “Black” women (and women of any hue…truly…) have been conditioned to swallow. From childhood we become experts in covering up…in camouflaging our emotional pain. We swallow it until we are choking with a rage and anger that must be released lest we burst into a million pieces.

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I have learned to take ‘time out” when I feel that inner volcano getting ready to explode. I then explore what lies below the rage. Ultimately, I discover hurt feelings or suppressed emotional pain. I then give myself permission to be human and vulnerable without the shame of feeling weak.  I allow my heart to hold both pain and righteous anger. For each is both justified and valid. I then lay them both at the Altar of Mother WisdomLady Peace…and Sister Harmony.

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Ultimately, words of wisdomlovecompassionunderstandingforgiveness and kindness…begin to flow into consciousness; words that wash away any residue of pain or anger that might still lay hidden in the secret recesses of my heart.  Thus, instead of wounding words born of anger, my response becomes a healing balm to the heart of whoever wounded me. For underneath the attacker’s anger and harsh words or actions was her/his own hidden pain. For s/he too has been acculturated just as I; and has learned that it is safer to go into attack mode than to show the weakness of one’s human vulnerability.

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It’s time to break this vicious cycle. Let us be courageous enough to feel our painindividual and collective. Let us weep together. Let us acknowledge to ourselves and to each other our human fears and vulnerabilities. Let us stop and think before uttering those hurtful words or otherwise inflicting pain upon each other.

Let us lay our collective pain at the Altar of Love.

(copyright: 2019 – Toni Roberts)

 

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The Secret Of A Long…Happy…Healthy…Creative…Productive Life:

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Yemaya Working Her Magic – Altar/Photograph by Toni Roberts

is to always remember that…

regardless of the situation…

the only thing that you can change in the equation…

is

YOU

 

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Humanity In The Grips Of Existential Fear…

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Grandfather Wisdom – Photograph by Toni Roberts

 

I stopped myself just in time as I was getting ready to fire off an angry, hateful response to an angry, hate-filled bigot who commented on one of my Facebook comments.

Ignore him,” my Better Self whispered. “Do you really want to engage at that level?”

I didn’t. And so, I decided to ignore his hateful remarks and if he persisted with comments, I would send him some “Love.” And, if I ultimately had to block him, I would.

No negative engagements for me—ever—end of report! I don’t have the space in my heart in which to hold both LOVE and HATE. And, furthermore, I understand the source of his hateful words: fear and insecurity. Neither is a stranger to this heart. Hateful racist words spring from feelings of being less than…of not mattering; from unmet needs and frustrations and from a sense of being threatened by people who are not members of one’s “tribe;” people who do not look like one. And who, to add to one’s frustration, may not even speak the same language. So there goes one’s last hope of communication, understanding or brotherhood.

I was not infected with this man’s fear-based anger because I am “Divinely Vaccinated.” And so, my initial angry impulse transformed into tears of sadness…sadness that we humans have strayed so far from who and what we essentially are. We have divided ourselves into warring tribes—now called nations—based on skin color and religions—which are all in essence, stories made up by the men of the tribes (differing slightly according to geographical location) in their unsuccessful attempts to assuage their own and others’ existential fear: not knowing who and what we are and why we are here.

And so, in false, fear-fueled bravado, we kill one another bolstered by the belief that Our God loves us best among all others and will surely smite our enemies.

Oh, humanity…with your childish hubris. Perhaps it’s time we all admit that we don’t know “jack” about anything; that we are all the frightened children of an unknown “Creator.” Perhaps it is time for us to turn within…to the heart…to that beating, pulsating organ at the center of our beings…whose activity or stillness defines life or death.

Perhaps the heart is the holder of the meaning of life…Toni Roberts

 

(Copyright: 1/23/2019-Toni Roberts)

 

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Sacred…Holy Sleep…

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Night Prayers – Altar Arrangement & Photography by Toni Roberts

the time in which the INVISIBLE ONESweave our highest aspirations and efforts:

the very fabric of our future lives

into the cells of our human bodies

 

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Words Of Courage…

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Companions In-Spirit – Window Altar Arrangement & Photograph by Toni Roberts

 

come drifting into consciousness as I sit here at my window altar…

turning the focus of my attention inward:

 

ARDOR...ZEALSTEADFASTNESS

now is not the time to be faint-of-heart

hold steadymy girlas you proceed along this Journey to Wholeness….

let LIFE carry youlet IT flow from withinout

relax

lean back into the WATERS of LIFE

float

trust LIFE to carry you wherever you need to go

 

breathereleasetrust your own INDWELLING WISDOM

 

know that you are a cherished part of a purpose beyond the scope of all human imaginings and suppositions…you are loved…you are neededjust as you are

 

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Life Shows Me…DAILY…

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River Gazing… – Altar Arrangement & Photography by Toni Roberts

that

to

LIVE TRULY

is

not

about

what I want…

desire

or

think I need…

but about

where

I

best

   SERVE

 

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