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I Shall Not Get Lost…

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Healing Altar – Photo by Toni Roberts

 

in the things of the world

in the fears, turmoil and confusion of humankind

I will continue

pulling myself back into the

STREAM OF LIFE

that

flows

through

this

heart

healing and nourishing the world

as I follow

this

inward

path

to

wholeness

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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I Am Taught By My “Companions…”

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The Grandfathers At The Altar – Photo by Toni Roberts

 

to place one

careful foot

before the other…

 

one step

at a time

 

 

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El Abuelo Con La Pareja y El Arte De Kathy Vega – Photo by Toni Roberts

 

resolute

and

steadfast

 

as I 

move

smoothly

through

the

dark

moments

of

this

journey

to

wholeness

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Some Thoughts On Old Age…Disease…And Dying…

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Moon Shine – Photo by Toni Roberts

 

The other day, during a telephone conversation (Yes, some of us still have telephone conversations…via landlines, no less.) an old friend of mine asked: “So what are you up to these days?” She had just finished describing her days of managing an “illness”—which she fully owned years ago—along with all the other obstacles and mundane matters of living in this world.

After listening to my list of daily activities, i.e., my daily spiritual practice; blogging, crafting one-of-a-kind necklaces; my attempts at creating a website—where I can sell these necklaces—plus my photography projects; and on and on and on. Poor thing I wanted to say to her, “No, my love. Keeping busy is what you do. I, on the other hand, am continuing to engage LIFE thus holding this body mind-soul back from that inevitable process of breaking down and withering away into dust…that process we call disease and dying…and which we anticipate happening to us when we reach what we humans call “old age.”  (And that varies with one’s mindset and lifestyle!)

But, of course, good breeding prevented me from saying any of that. Plus, I knew that I always had my Blog: https://toniroberts.wordpress.com and this Facebook Page: https://www.facebook.com/gaiadaughters in which to vent!

Thank you, for bearing with me. But please, think about it. How is it that some of us can move joyfully, healthily and actively into our seventies and eighties…while most others of us begin the disease and dying process, right-on-time, as if programmed to do so?

Comments are welcome!

Ah…and one more thing…before you start talking about DNA and genes…do a bit of research into the latest findings in the field of Epigenetics.

The Most Difficult Part Of this Journey…

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“The Land” Up At The Berkshires – Photo Nine by Toni Roberts

or TREK

as some might say…

is the

LETTING…

the

ALLOWING

the

PERMITTING...

in place of the

DOING

 

the necessity of becoming a

participating observer

in one’s own life…

 

 

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Life Is So Strange…

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Day Three Summer Solstice 2017 – Altar – Photo by Toni Roberts

 

 

such a mystery

an

incomprehensible mystery

unfolding from the

inside

out

 

 

 

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It Is The Letting Go…

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Surrender – Pencil Drawing/Photo by Toni Roberts

of all that one holds as

      TRUTH…

and

   REALITY

it is the learning to be

   IN…

but not

   OF…

this

MAN-MADE

world…

it is the

TOTAL

SURRENDER

to that which one cannot

touch

taste

smell

or

   see

and can only

hear

as a faint

echo

within one’s

   HEART

these are but a

sprinkling

of the

difficulties

one encounters

upon the

JOURNEY

to

   WHOLENESS

so be ye of strong

SPIRIT

and great

COURAGE

as ye embark upon this

   SACRED

INNER

   PATH

 

In Other Words…

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Photo by Toni Roberts

the

question

is the

key

that

opens

the

   door…

once the question has been asked

the questioner must remain

   silent and alert…

so as not to miss the opportunity...

   once the door swings open…

to enter a heretofore

   dark…

   hidden…

   unexplored…

room

of

the

   mansion…

a room filled to capacity with

un-imagined

treasures…

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography are available at:

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Since I Now Know…

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Photo by Toni Roberts

 

that the

answer

is contained

within the

   question…

   I simply

ask…

   lean back…

   relax…

and say

YES

to the

      LETTING GO ENERGY…

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography are available at:

http://www.cafepress.com/DaughtersofGaia

http://www.cafepress.com/orishatreasures

http://www.fineartamerica.com/art/all/toni+roberts/all

http://toniroberts.imagekind.com

On Death By Suicide…

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River…Post-Davin; photo by Toni Roberts; copyright 2016

the loss of my beloved grandson

who last month

at the tender age of twenty-one

exercised

free will

his by divine right

and chose to exit this world quickly…

via a bullet to the head...

Got me thinking about

death by suicide…

and how all humans leave this realm

via death by suicide

   consciously…by their own hand

or unconsciously…

blaming their leave-taking on Fate or “God…”

forgetting that we are all creatures of

free will

   and that nothing

not even death is imposed upon us by some

mysterious all-powerful Force

It is we who knowingly or unknowingly

create these painful, ghastly, unimaginable  dis-eases

that debilitate and devour our our bodies

system by system…

organ by organ…

in a slow death by suicide...

Indeed…by the use or misuse of free will…

all death is by our daily decisions and choices

although my heart breaks at the thought of the degree of unendurable psychic pain

that drove my beloved to so quickly end this earthly sojourn…

this shared here-now…

I grant him his right of

conscious exercise of 

free-will…

And I here-now bless the Essence of the boy-man I so loved

on Its continued journey

New Year…New Life…New Way of Being…

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(photo by Toni Roberts)

I spent so many years of my life

turned outward

looking to the world for a way out of the

misery

of

existence…

searching outside of

Self

for the answers…

      for the solutions to life’s dilemmas…

   another job…

   in the classroom…

   out of the classroom…

   to the corporate world…

 no!

the non-profits!

back and forth up and down round and round

until finally

battered

beaten

bruised

   knocked down…but not out…

by stage 3 breast cancer

   I gave up…

   gave in…

surrendered

to

WHATEVER IT IS

THAT

CAUSED ME INTO

BEING

   in the first place…

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(photo by Toni Roberts)

  and since then…

IT and i

   have been caught up in a loving embrace…

totally and completely

   AT-ONE…

 

i have relinquished the lead

and now follow that

   Inner Directive…

   right out of the box of the past…

into a new year

a new life

   a new way of being

Happy 2016 to one and all!

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