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OBEDIENCE…

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Grandfather and Marley – Photograph by Toni Roberts

is born of  TRUST

 

without TRUST

there can be no OBEDIENCE

for TRUST is the foundation and source out of which

OBEDIENCE  flows

naturally...organicallywithout human thought or effort

Toni Roberts

 

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To Know True Freedom…

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Realizations At The Altar – Altar Arrangement/Photograph by Toni Roberts

 

is to

release oneself

from the

tyrannical preoccupation

with

SELF

 

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I know That I Am In Accord With The Cosmos…

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Candle On Altar – Arrangement/Photography by Toni Roberts

when everything in my life falls right into its perfect place…

as if by magic

 

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Coniunctio…

I Am Mother…Earth…Giver of Life…Drawing/Photograph by Toni Roberts

She, speaking softly

From the folds

Of the wet, dark place

Tells of Her thousand pleasures

 

What perverse misconstruction, asks She

Tells you that I am not the Center?

The seat of your being…of Life itself?

Why know you not that mine is the passageway to Heaven?

Through mine Divine Portal

The breath of life blows

To scatter seeds

Of Being

 

What say You? Asks He

This talk of Holy Entrance?

The Seat of Life?

The Passageway to Heaven?

The Way to Heaven is through Me

What know You of pleasure, indeed?

You, who are bound to earth

To moaning, groaning, writhing and wailing

In ecstasies of the flesh…

What know You of the pleasure

Of a bursting star?

Of universes that explode into being

From molten lava

Which rises from my Peak?

 

Fool above

I hear You speak…

Know You not the Source

Of the sun-kissed fluid

That ignites within You the spark of Life?

A sad and lifeless sack of dry grey matter

Would You be

Were it not

For Me

 

Great Slut below,

O Wanton One of earth and flesh

Dare You imply

That rank and reeking place

Where You reside

The Source

Of my sweet elixir of life?

 

To be sure, My Lord

That’s what I speak…

Come down to see

How from a thousand Ecstasies

Flows the golden fluid

So vital to

Both You and Me

 

What say You, O’ Fierce and Fearless Ruler

Of the Realm above?

Pierce this dark, warm wetness

Of my Being

With your shaft of Light…

Descend to me so that I may envelope You

In all the sweetness of my ecstasy…

So that I may whisper in your fair ear

Of a thousand unknown things…

 

Let me wrap my huge, dark loins

About Your stiff, unyielding back

And ride upon You

Waves of endless joy…

Pleasure greater than the bursting stars

Of infinite universes

Is Yours to have

For acceptance of my Realm

As the Path to Immortality

 

Lower Yourself, my Fearless One

Into the deep, dark waters of my Being

Penetrate deeply with the flame

Of your raging passion

Explode within

My

Center

 

Though resist He tries

Her liquid words have set Him

All a quiver…

He turns this way, then that

Yet is sucked like shavings by a magnet

Through the Portals

Of Her Secret Place

 

Pray not, He moans

To be forever trapped

In fleshly prison

This Light

That once

Was

I

 

(Copyright 1998, as The Fall of the God; by Toni Roberts. First published in The Crone Chronicles, 1998.)

 

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Today’s Revelation…

“Journey to Manhood”- Collage in Honor Of Beloved Grandson Who Committed Suicide at Age Twenty-One on February 16, 2016 – Collage & Photo by Toni Roberts

 

my Life is my Art…my Art is my Work…my Work is my Raison d’être

and for thatthis WiseWoman is most grateful

 

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Today…I Discovered…

 

 

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Blazing Glory In The Skies Above – Photo by Toni Roberts

another box out of which I need to climb…

 

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On Becoming Whole…

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The River At Winter – Photography by Toni Roberts

The river at winter…

Makes me weep

 

“Black” boys killing each other…

Makes me weep

 

The genocide of my people…and other people-of-color…

Makes me weep

 

And, how well I know: “Of mine own selfI can do nothing…”

 

And that…

Makes me weep profusely

 

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Double Rainbow Over the River: Hope – Photograph by Toni Roberts

As it also gives me hope

For it is only when I give up the illusion of personal human power

It is in that moment of surrender: bodymind…soul…lifeego...

Surrender of my very Beingness…that I am assured that all is well

And I…and my dusty world are made Whole

 

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Without Divine Purpose…

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Looking Up! – Photograph by Toni Roberts

A life lived solely

in

fulfillment

of

human

purpose

is

meaningless

 

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Let Us Lay Our Collective Pain At The Altar Of Love…

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Altar of Love – Photograph by Toni Roberts

This Path I’ve chosen to walk is indeed, a “straight and narrow “one!

No longer can I stray onto the familiar side streets of anger and sarcasm: my old defenses…my old way of covering up hurt, disappointment, or emotional pain. All of those feelings that strong “Black” women (and women of any hue…truly…) have been conditioned to swallow. From childhood we become experts in covering up…in camouflaging our emotional pain. We swallow it until we are choking with a rage and anger that must be released lest we burst into a million pieces.

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I have learned to take ‘time out” when I feel that inner volcano getting ready to explode. I then explore what lies below the rage. Ultimately, I discover hurt feelings or suppressed emotional pain. I then give myself permission to be human and vulnerable without the shame of feeling weak.  I allow my heart to hold both pain and righteous anger. For each is both justified and valid. I then lay them both at the Altar of Mother WisdomLady Peace…and Sister Harmony.

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Ultimately, words of wisdomlovecompassionunderstandingforgiveness and kindness…begin to flow into consciousness; words that wash away any residue of pain or anger that might still lay hidden in the secret recesses of my heart.  Thus, instead of wounding words born of anger, my response becomes a healing balm to the heart of whoever wounded me. For underneath the attacker’s anger and harsh words or actions was her/his own hidden pain. For s/he too has been acculturated just as I; and has learned that it is safer to go into attack mode than to show the weakness of one’s human vulnerability.

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It’s time to break this vicious cycle. Let us be courageous enough to feel our painindividual and collective. Let us weep together. Let us acknowledge to ourselves and to each other our human fears and vulnerabilities. Let us stop and think before uttering those hurtful words or otherwise inflicting pain upon each other.

Let us lay our collective pain at the Altar of Love.

(copyright: 2019 – Toni Roberts)

 

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Overcoming The World…

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Overcoming the World – Photograph by Toni Roberts – Plant Life Growing From Between the Rocks – Central Park, NYC

Life is a series of adversities followed by abundant blessings

which cycle right back into adversity

the sun rises and then darkness descends

such is the rhythm and nature of human existence

we who would hope to emerge unscathed from Life‘s ups and downs must learn to bend

NONRESISTANCEACCEPTANCE...SURRENDER

lest ye be BROKEN by the ill-winds of misfortune…

 

(Copyright: Toni Roberts 1/8/2019)

 

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