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I Can Now Understand These Words Of The Buddha:

before enlightenment

chop wood

   haul water…

after enlightenment

chop wood

   haul water

Yes…Yes…Yes…

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Dawn Rising Over The Wetlands – Photo by Toni Roberts

this

LIFE

is indeed a

DELICATE DANCE

of

   INTERDEPENDENCE…

in which we

HUMANS

are

BOUND

one-to-the-other

and

to the

SOURCE

of our

   BEING…

in ways we’ve

YET

to

COMPREHEND

 

 

 

 

 

The Weight Of Your Pain…

Photo by Toni Roberts

Photo by Toni Roberts

my love for you

permits me to bear

the weight of your

pain

 without being

   crushed…

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The Path Has Darkened Again…

Photo by Toni Roberts

Photo by Toni Roberts

But this time

   I fear not…

For I have learned:

darkness is always followed by

LIGHT

and each little death heralds a

   REBIRTH

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography May Be Viewed & Purchased at:

http://www.cafepress.com/DaughtersofGaia

http://www.cafepress.com/orishatreasures

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At-One-Ment: A Homecoming

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I sit here

at my window altar

gazing outward…

focused inward...

Such a feeling of finality...

as if an old way of being has come to an end

c’est fini…

I am in worship

in communion with

I know not what…

what I do know…however…

is that this ” I know not what

is the Source of the being

who sits here-now writing these words…

This “I know not what”

is what will unfold

in…as…through

whatever I become

in the next

minutes

hours

days

of this experience

I name

self...

life

Whoever–

I conceived…perceived myself to be–just yesterday…

I am no longer…

I know not yet what I shall become…

who or what will unfold from the

Great Mystery of Being

Which pours ItSelf

in…as…through

all that I call

Reality...

all that I know is that I will align

my energetic frequency

to It

matching It Beat for Beat…

I will marry myself to It…

Bind myself irretrievably…eternally…to

It

I am plugged into the Source

fully…completely…

in eternal connection…

in a state of

at-one-ment

Incoming Thoughts On Becoming Whole…

river at twilight

river at twilight

 

right-doing flows from right-being

sunset

sunset

 

let go…be still…surrender

and thus be made ready for Divine Service

at the appointed time

sacred space

sacred space

 

illumination does not come while shopping or bar-b-que-ing

it steals upon one slowly

in the Silence

when one is alone in the dark stillness

of Being

sunset

sunset

 

what is most difficult in this process of becoming whole

is the necessity of surrender

of submitting one’s ego-directed will

to Something that can only be felt…or sensed…

never known in the three-dimensional modes of

touch…sight…hearing...taste or smell

one is, nonetheless, acutely aware of

It…

some  indwelling Thing

that is more true…

more real…

than any thing in the

manifest world

 

Watching The River Flow…

watching the river flow...

watching the river flow

Another day of

sitting here in my favorite spot…

watching the river flow.

Slowly.

Easily.

Peacefully.

Effortlessly pressing forward

despite the disturbance

less than two minutes ago

caused by

three water scooters racing

along its surface.

I wonder…

had the river not been disturbed by those scooters,

wouldn’t it now be calm? At peace?

Its movement imperceptible to my eyes?

Is what I perceive as a disturbance

as a negative occurrence–

in truth–neither good nor bad

as regards the life of the river?

The boys have had their fun

and the river, now adjusting to the “disturbance”

is slowly falling back into equilibrium…

into its natural rhythm.

The “disturbance” has not in the least

veered the river from its steady course or

made it different from what it is.

And so, I take a lesson this day from the river

and allow  every person, event, experience, emotion and

appearance-of-the-moment

to pass through me as easily

as those  boys passed through the river below…

leaving it ultimately untouched, undisturbed

and pressing ever forward

in an unobstructed flow

towards its destiny.

Journal Entry: July 12, 2011

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JOURNAL ENTRY: JULY 12, 2011

Been away from blogging for a while. Busy living…thinking…contemplating my navel—learning and growing…I hope…

Decided to fast-forward re the cancer “event.” Yes, that was exactly what it turned out to be: an event—an opportunity for me to learn about who I am and why I’m here—an occasion for growth. And so, I stopped the chemo, chose life and turned within to what I call Divine Intelligence…a loving God…Spirit…and asked to be directed. There immediately followed radio announcements, chance conversations and unexpected visitors all bringing me exactly what I needed at the very moment of that need. And since that decisive day in early 2008 to this twelfth day of July, 2011, I have enjoyed the fullness of radiant health.

I’m not really sure of the direction that this Blog will now take. It is no longer up to me for I have fully and finally turned my gaze from the past; and in the here-now have submitted—surrendered—the complete and total focus of my attention to that Inner Presence.

A page from this morning’s writings may clarify:

            …enough already! Let all of that crap go! It owns you. It is still alive and well living in, as, through you! Do not think upon the past. Whenever a thought pops into mind—along with its BAD FEELINGS, simply replace it with TRUTH! And what is truth?

  1. That the thoughts and feelings that I am now experiencing are creations of the frightened child—the part of me that believes that she is ALONE in this 3-D HELL with all of its boogey-men popping up here, then there, then here again—BOO! BOO! HA! GOTCHA!
  2.  That this same part of me believes that it is disconnected from the Source of its being; from this PHONOMENOM called “God,” The Creator, the All in all. She firmly believes that the events, situations and people popping up in her daily experience—all of these “negatives” that either frighten her or make her sad—are real. Indeed, they do constitute a “reality,” however, it is one that is created and recreated by the constant focus of her mind, attention and belief upon them. It is my own mental energy keeping the boogey-men of my life alive and in place! Somewhat like walking in place and going nowhere.
  3.  BUT—simultaneously—there exists another “world,” so to speak, another Reality. The Real Reality—a TOTALLY DIFERENT HERE-NOW that exists in the same Time Space in which my human consciousness exists. And if “i” step aside and allow It—this Super Self—Christ Self to take over the direction of the Entity of which “i” am a part, It will unfold a new Reality: a Heaven on earth; in, as and through me: the “i,” Its vehicle.

It’s the same old story—the same old choice: Heaven or Earth; God or the mammon? Earth and the mammon being the creations of the “i. Versus La Diosa Crista adentro, the Christ within Who will take the oars of this “boat,” if permitted, and row it in a direction that the “i” did not chose; into areas that are yet unformed; unseen and unimaginable from the vantage point of the “i.” .

It is simply time for me to turn from contemplation of the past and begin honoring my imagination and creativity right here-now in the present; allowing my life…my very breath to flow not from the “i” but from the Center of my being where dwells That Which Breathes All into Reality…

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