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Before Entering 2017…

I take this moment to look back over

2016…

 

I focus only on the blessings

The miracles both small and grand

Wrought by Some Great Mystery…

 

Like the miracle of this view…

Twenty stories above the Hutchinson River and Long Island Sound

A $12,000-a-month vista if viewed from a Manhattan High-Rise…

Instead of from a bedroom window in the “Boogie-Down Bronx…”

 

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View from My Window: Hutchinson River & Long Island Sound/Photo by Toni Roberts

 

And the miracle of this spaciouspalatial apartment

That has been totally renovated

Over the past two months…

Right down to the hardwood floors

And brand new kitchen

Whose countertops may be fake granite…but HELL

The entire apartment makeover was

FREE OF CHARGE

 

And so…

I bid adieu to the pain of yesterday…

As I leave my Dearly Departed in peace…

And turn my vision forward on this mysterious journey

Called human life on planet earth…

A journey filled as much with painuncertainty…and confusion

As it is with inexplicable joy and unasked for

Gifts of The Spirit!

 

Adios…

2016!

Y muy bienvenido…

2017!

In Other Words…

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Photo by Toni Roberts

the

question

is the

key

that

opens

the

   door…

once the question has been asked

the questioner must remain

   silent and alert…

so as not to miss the opportunity...

   once the door swings open…

to enter a heretofore

   dark…

   hidden…

   unexplored…

room

of

the

   mansion…

a room filled to capacity with

un-imagined

treasures…

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography are available at:

http://www.cafepress.com/DaughtersofGaia

http://www.cafepress.com/orishatreasures

http://www.fineartamerica.com/art/all/toni+roberts/all

http://toniroberts.imagekind.com

I Am Slowly Learning…

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Hutchinson River, Bx., NY; Photo by Toni Roberts

to stop trying to push

the rivers of my life…

   to simply let them

flow

as

they

    will…

   arriving at their own destinations…

   unfolding in their own time…

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography are available at:

http://www.cafepress.com/DaughtersofGaia

http://www.cafepress.com/orishatreasures

http://www.fineartamerica.com/art/all/toni+roberts/all

http://toniroberts.imagekind.com

Breathing In With The Waxing, Crescent Moon…

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May 9, 2016…14% Waxing, Crescent Moon; Stock Photograph

   I must remember…

this is the time of the

  in-breath…

of filling up with

   Light…

   of taking in…

   strengthening…

   building up…

   restoring…

 a time of  regeneration… 

the time of the

out-breath

shall return with the

fullness of Mother Moon

It will then be my time return to the world

   empowered…

ready to

   build…create

slay dragons…

but for now…I focus on the

   in-breath…taking in…

resisting the temptation of trying

to carry my dreams from

imagination to physical form

by

dint

of

human power

   alone…

yes…

the time for action will come

   but for now…

the

    in-breath

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography are available at:

http://www.cafepress.com/DaughtersofGaia

http://www.cafepress.com/orishatreasures

http://www.fineartamerica.com/art/all/toni+roberts/all

http://toniroberts.imagekind.com

SURRENDER…

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Photo by Toni Roberts

 

IS

A

BITCH!

“Rainy Days & Sundays…”

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Rainy…River…Day; Photo by Toni Roberts

 

Nothing like a rainy day to turn one’s attention inward…

I was sitting here at my window altar

Exploring

Heart

   Soul…

and

Consciousness

When I uncovered tiny pockets of

Anger

Sadness

and

Rage

   That remained

Hidden

Within the dark recesses of my being…

   Buried…

   Stinking…

SHIT

Some of it dating back to childhood

   (And we all know how long ago that was!)…

Oh, how well I know

and remember

How

Unexpressed

Anger

Sadness

and

Rage

   Can…

   Will…

Eventually manifest in the

Flesh

as

   Disease…

And so…

On this rainy day

I got busy with the necessary

   Inner Work

Scrubbing

Cleansing

Mopping up

Vacuuming

Clearing

and

Cleaning out

The tons of stinking…festering…rotting

   SHIT…

I unloaded every speck that I could find of that

Inner Garbage

So that I may walk

Free

Clear

Light

   Unburdened

By yesterday’s pain

   Into tomorrow’s sunshine

Sweet Surrender…

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1-29-16 Photo by Toni Roberts

 

I

am

not

of

this world

but simply

in

it

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1 19 16 Photo by Toni Roberts

 

and

oh

how much more

I enjoy my experiences

from this

new

position

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1 16 16 Photo by Toni Roberts

 

the trick

however

is

to

stay

awake

and not permit myself

to

be

lulled back into

the world’s way of

   seeing…

not allow myself to be

lulled

asleep

   again

by the

sensuous

glamour

of

the

   flesh

and

return

to

the

living

of

this

life

as if the

dream

we are

jointly

dreaming

is

   reality…

Confessions Of One…Who On Close Examination…Finds Herself Less Than Her Imagined Perfection!

Photo by Toni Roberts

Photo by Toni Roberts

Here I was thinking that I was already

Perfected

Squeaky-clean

Compassionate

Honest

Transparent

Photo by Toni Roberts

Photo by Toni Roberts

And above all…oh, so

Spiritual…

Imagine my chagrin yesterday

When I caught myself

Red-handed

Allowing someone

I do not like

Whom I find extremely

Toxic

To purchase

Three hours of my

Precious Time and Life

In exchange for

Dinner

&

   Full-body message...

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