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Since I Now Know…

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Photo by Toni Roberts

 

that the

answer

is contained

within the

   question…

   I simply

ask…

   lean back…

   relax…

and say

YES

to the

      LETTING GO ENERGY…

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Gemini Moon…

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Full Moon; Stock Photo

 

   Gemini Moon…

in the fullness of

Your Light

the hidden self

   is revealed…

and as the dark self wanes before

   Your Brilliance…

the

Goddess Self

   expands…

illuminating the world

with the

    Healing Light

of

   Your Love…

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I Am Slowly Learning…

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Hutchinson River, Bx., NY; Photo by Toni Roberts

to stop trying to push

the rivers of my life…

   to simply let them

flow

as

they

    will…

   arriving at their own destinations…

   unfolding in their own time…

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography are available at:

http://www.cafepress.com/DaughtersofGaia

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Breathing In With The Waxing, Crescent Moon…

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May 9, 2016…14% Waxing, Crescent Moon; Stock Photograph

   I must remember…

this is the time of the

  in-breath…

of filling up with

   Light…

   of taking in…

   strengthening…

   building up…

   restoring…

 a time of  regeneration… 

the time of the

out-breath

shall return with the

fullness of Mother Moon

It will then be my time return to the world

   empowered…

ready to

   build…create

slay dragons…

but for now…I focus on the

   in-breath…taking in…

resisting the temptation of trying

to carry my dreams from

imagination to physical form

by

dint

of

human power

   alone…

yes…

the time for action will come

   but for now…

the

    in-breath

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography are available at:

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How To Fly…

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Man In A Glass Box; photo by Toni Roberts

 

deconstruct the

current box in which you

livebreathe…and have your being…

release the stories you tell

about: yourselfyour lifeyour past

stories that confine…restrict

prevent you from taking flight

like the free spirit you came this way

to be

 

tear down the box you have built around yourself

that allows you to maintain the

illusion of safety within the confines of a

crazed and fear-filled mind

teeming with false beliefs and

wild imaginings…

release the tales of past events

you tell to all who will listen…

cease the righteous picking and re-picking of scabs from

wounds half-healed

ignore the box in which your neighbor is confined…

and the larger one within which

the world is encased

gaze not upon

the boxes of the Others

who so enrageinfuriate…irritate

as they infringe upon and restrict

the expansion of your own beloved box…

disturbing the bliss of infatuation with your

own story

still your mind

quiet your tongue

eliminate: I…my…me…mine

from your vocabulary…

thus you shall begin the dismantling of

the box that confines and restricts your being

preventing you from taking flight

like the free spirit you came this way

to be

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography May Be Viewed & Purchased at:

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On Death By Suicide…

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River…Post-Davin; photo by Toni Roberts; copyright 2016

the loss of my beloved grandson

who last month

at the tender age of twenty-one

exercised

free will

his by divine right

and chose to exit this world quickly…

via a bullet to the head...

Got me thinking about

death by suicide…

and how all humans leave this realm

via death by suicide

   consciously…by their own hand

or unconsciously…

blaming their leave-taking on Fate or “God…”

forgetting that we are all creatures of

free will

   and that nothing

not even death is imposed upon us by some

mysterious all-powerful Force

It is we who knowingly or unknowingly

create these painful, ghastly, unimaginable  dis-eases

that debilitate and devour our our bodies

system by system…

organ by organ…

in a slow death by suicide...

Indeed…by the use or misuse of free will…

all death is by our daily decisions and choices

although my heart breaks at the thought of the degree of unendurable psychic pain

that drove my beloved to so quickly end this earthly sojourn…

this shared here-now…

I grant him his right of

conscious exercise of 

free-will…

And I here-now bless the Essence of the boy-man I so loved

on Its continued journey

“Rainy Days & Sundays…”

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Rainy…River…Day; Photo by Toni Roberts

 

Nothing like a rainy day to turn one’s attention inward…

I was sitting here at my window altar

Exploring

Heart

   Soul…

and

Consciousness

When I uncovered tiny pockets of

Anger

Sadness

and

Rage

   That remained

Hidden

Within the dark recesses of my being…

   Buried…

   Stinking…

SHIT

Some of it dating back to childhood

   (And we all know how long ago that was!)…

Oh, how well I know

and remember

How

Unexpressed

Anger

Sadness

and

Rage

   Can…

   Will…

Eventually manifest in the

Flesh

as

   Disease…

And so…

On this rainy day

I got busy with the necessary

   Inner Work

Scrubbing

Cleansing

Mopping up

Vacuuming

Clearing

and

Cleaning out

The tons of stinking…festering…rotting

   SHIT…

I unloaded every speck that I could find of that

Inner Garbage

So that I may walk

Free

Clear

Light

   Unburdened

By yesterday’s pain

   Into tomorrow’s sunshine

Sweet Surrender…

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1-29-16 Photo by Toni Roberts

 

I

am

not

of

this world

but simply

in

it

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1 19 16 Photo by Toni Roberts

 

and

oh

how much more

I enjoy my experiences

from this

new

position

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1 16 16 Photo by Toni Roberts

 

the trick

however

is

to

stay

awake

and not permit myself

to

be

lulled back into

the world’s way of

   seeing…

not allow myself to be

lulled

asleep

   again

by the

sensuous

glamour

of

the

   flesh

and

return

to

the

living

of

this

life

as if the

dream

we are

jointly

dreaming

is

   reality…

Spent All Day Photographing The River And…

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Photo by Toni Roberts 1/16/16

   weeping...

releasing deep pain

I didn’t know remained

      within

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Photo by Toni Roberts 1/16/16

probably brushing it aside

in prayer and meditation

   whenever it came up…

as if the release of psychic pain

   is not an ongoing job…

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Photo by Toni Roberts 1/16/16

   and so…

I have given myself this entire week

   OFF…

Saturday to Saturday

vacation

retreat

seclusion

no business

   no telephone calls…

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Photo by Toni Roberts 1/16/16

 

   just the

   river

   my

   tears…

and

this profound sense of

   mourning

for whom?

or what?

   can’t name it…

   only know that a part of me…

a

heavy load

I’ve carried deep within my heart

since the beginning of

   memory

   can now be released…

during this week of

vacation

retreat

   letting go...

this week of

   death…

and

    dying things

Rainy Days…

Photo by Toni Roberts

Photo by Toni Roberts

as I sit here at my window altar

gazing out at the river

watching the raindrops fall

I become aware of my role as

“Placeholder”

for

Divine Healing Energy

that moves

Backward and Forward

in

Time

healing the wounds of all the many

Bloodlines

that intersect within this

“Spacetime”

called

    “Toni Roberts…”

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography May Be Viewed & Purchased at:

 http://www.cafepress.com/DaughtersofGaia

http://www.cafepress.com/orishatreasures

http://www.fineartamerica.com/art/all/toni+roberts/all

http://toniroberts.imagekind.com

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