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Roses And Candle On Altar…

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Healing Altar – Photo by Toni Roberts

 

 

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Today…As I Sat In The Silence…

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Photo by Toni Roberts

I realized that

I...

We

Either live in

Knowledge

Wisdom…

And

Understanding …

Or

Die

in

   Ignorance

The

Choice

Is

   Ours

And therein lay the

Limits

of our

   Human

Power

And

   Fate

 

I Seek Within…

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Winter On My Block – Photo by Toni Roberts

and find

both the

courage

and the

trust

to take

one

more

step

   forward…

into

the

   unknown

Today, I Am Learning…

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Bridges Opening Over Hutchinson River/Long Island Sound – Photo by Toni Roberts

to live in

peace

balance

and

harmony

despite the

doubt

confusion

and

   uncertainty

   inherent in the living of human life on planet earth…

for therein lay the only path to:

health

vitality

and

joy

in the full

ex-pression

of

    BEING…

from the

   inside…

   out

Today…

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Vassar Campus; Photo by Toni Roberts

 

 

I cease my attempts

to construct a new and different

future

based upon the same

old

blueprints

from the

   past

As I Sat In The Silence Today…

      as I sat listening within…

contemplating the new life that is about to enter the family…

so soon after the suicide of my beloved grandson…

   I heard these words:

“it is

BLOOD

and not the

CHURCH

or

STATE

that determines and defines what is

FAMILY

and the

“RIGHTNESS”

or

APPROPRIATENESS

   of relationships between and among humans…”

such is the strangeness that drifts into consciousness

when one’s mind sits idle and open…

such a re-making of one’s worldview

such a re-seeing of reality

and

re-ordering

of one’s

cultural indoctrinations

such strangeness

born of a mind and heart not engaged in the mindless madness of the world

such an exquisite awareness of what is

REAL

and what is

   NOT

As I Sit Here In Contemplation Of My Navel…

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“The Land,” The Berkshires, MA; Photo Seven by Toni Roberts

it’s beginning to dawn on me

through these recent days of

joy-mixed-pain

that there is no such thing as

good

or

bad

     in the events of life…

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“The Land,” The Berkshires, MA; Photo by Toni Roberts

 

   it’s simply that…

shit happens so that other shit can happen

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“The Land,” The Berkshires, MA; photo by Toni Roberts

LIFE

does nothing

to

   us…

only

for

   us…

and as trite as it may sound:

everything

comes

to

    pass

 

 

 

Today I Listened Deeply

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Healing Childhood Wounds; photo by Toni Roberts

 

I quieted the

   Inner chatter…

Shut down the

   Drunken-monkey-mind…

And using my

Heart

As a

Listening Apparatus

I tuned into the

Inner Silence

at the

Core of my Being

 

I am learning daily how to hear

   Truly…

  And thus become the

Human Receiver

   I

 Came

This

  Way

   To

         Be...

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography are available at:

http://www.cafepress.com/DaughtersofGaia

http://www.cafepress.com/orishatreasures

http://www.fineartamerica.com/art/all/toni+roberts/all

http://toniroberts.imagekind.com

Another Day…

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Altar Photo by Toni Roberts

   in my

         Sacred Space

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Grandfathers and Drum–Photo by Toni Roberts

with the

Ladies…Grandfathers…Djembe…

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Altar #2–Photo by Toni Roberts

   sitting…breathing…waiting…listening…

   pen poised above journal…

ready for today’s

   Dictation

Toni Roberts’ Artwork and Photography are available at:

http://www.cafepress.com/DaughtersofGaia

http://www.cafepress.com/orishatreasures

http://www.fineartamerica.com/art/all/toni+roberts/all

http://toniroberts.imagekind.com

Spent All Day Photographing The River And…

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Photo by Toni Roberts 1/16/16

   weeping...

releasing deep pain

I didn’t know remained

      within

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Photo by Toni Roberts 1/16/16

probably brushing it aside

in prayer and meditation

   whenever it came up…

as if the release of psychic pain

   is not an ongoing job…

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Photo by Toni Roberts 1/16/16

   and so…

I have given myself this entire week

   OFF…

Saturday to Saturday

vacation

retreat

seclusion

no business

   no telephone calls…

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Photo by Toni Roberts 1/16/16

 

   just the

   river

   my

   tears…

and

this profound sense of

   mourning

for whom?

or what?

   can’t name it…

   only know that a part of me…

a

heavy load

I’ve carried deep within my heart

since the beginning of

   memory

   can now be released…

during this week of

vacation

retreat

   letting go...

this week of

   death…

and

    dying things

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