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There Is But ONE ENERGY…

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River Gazing – Photograph by Toni Roberts

This ENERGY is neither “bad” nor “good…”

It simply is

 

This ONE ENERGY is Creative Energy

The only thing IT does is

CREATE

 

That is ITS only job…

 

This ONE CREATIVE ENERGY is obedient to human consciousness

IT obeys human willbeliefsthoughtsdesiresintents… (Both hidden and open)…

IT is especially responsive to human EmotionsEMotions…which are simply…ENERGY-IN-MOTION…

 

Most humans are unaware of this and misspend this POWERFUL…natural…inherent CREATIVE ENERGYfucking it away in mindless sex…instead of engaging in Conscious Holy Union or…Communion with another of like-spirit…Imagine what a couple could create with the Conscious Use of this ENERGY…an ENERGY so powerfulIT is capable of creating another human being…Instead…most of us unconsciously fuck it away…just like any other animal on the planet…

 

Will you…for a moment…imagine the potential of what we humans could create for the benefit of humankind with the ENERGY that we spend on wars…on the mass slaughter of other human beings…simply because they look different from us…or worship a different “God…?” Or…more often…because they possess something we desire for ourselves…?

 

Felt like sharing few thoughts from the Whispers of the Mother…as I sit here at my window altar…rivergazing

Are you fucking away your natural…divinely granted CREATIVE ENERGY?

 

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There Is ONE Kind Of ENERGY…

Creation – Artwork & Photograph by Toni Roberts

IT

is

CREATIVE

in nature…

 

IT

is

this

ONE-CREATIVEENERGY

with which we humans

create

either:

peace…love…health…joy…fulfillment in living…justice…

or:

war…hatred…disease…unrest…despair…poverty…insanity

 

THE

CHOICE

IS ALWAYS OURS

I take this day

to

ponder:

exactly what is it

that

I

am

creating?

 

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Since I Now Know…

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Photo by Toni Roberts

 

that the

answer

is contained

within the

   question…

   I simply

ask…

   lean back…

   relax…

and say

YES

to the

      LETTING GO ENERGY…

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Gemini Moon…

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Full Moon; Stock Photo

 

   Gemini Moon…

in the fullness of

Your Light

the hidden self

   is revealed…

and as the dark self wanes before

   Your Brilliance…

the

Goddess Self

   expands…

illuminating the world

with the

    Healing Light

of

   Your Love…

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My Ultimate Prayer Of Gratitude

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Photo by Toni Roberts

 

Thank YOU
for my growing faith and trust that all in my life is working in balance and unity
for the best and highest good
of the greatest number of people, situations and events
that are entrained with my own
Energetic Frequency
which is Your Frequency
vibrating through…in…as this body-mind-soul:
receiver, communicator, agent, agency…
human transformer of
Energy to matter…

Thank YOU
for my growing awareness
and the ability to use my dreams
in the successful living of this life…

Thank YOU
for the increased awareness
of all the remaining dark places of my soul
and of the blocks and obstacles that still obstruct my path
the Path that YOU have laid out before me…

Thank YOU
for the gifts of time and freedom
in which to sit daily in the Silence
absorbing knowledge…understanding…love…light
for wise living…

Thank YOU
for the growing desire
to be nothing more than
a bringer of light, peace and harmony
to my world…

Thank YOU
for the joy and excitement
of an ever-unfolding mystery of being
on this ongoing journey
of expanded consciousness…

Thank YOU…

WHATEVER YOU ARE…

YOU ROCK!

And I am forever grateful to serve Your Divine and Holy Purpose
however that may manifest in my life…

thank you…thank you…thank you…

A Day of Gratitude and Understanding…

rising…rising…ever rising…

What joy!

Am learning to give this life I call “mine” back to Life: it’s rightful “Owner”

Thank You…Life

for this sense of peace, safety, love, security, assurance

which arises from a place

deep within The Mystery

assuring me that all is well…

that You now flow freely…unobstructed in, as and through me…

as the True Author of this

ever-changing…ever-evolving

experience

called the life of Toni Roberts…

I now see shape and purpose

in the daily unfolding of a journey

that began before the beginning of time...

I am re-membering what “i” came here knowing…

even then in the ignorant, pain-filled innocence

of childhood…adolescence…young adulthood…

even then I knew

at some deep

essential

level of being…

the purpose of this journey…

I now understand:

it is through the of deep wounds

of the soul…

that Light passes through

and with that Light

Love

long held down…repressed by Fear

Love

bubbling up to the surface of being…

transforming

a chaotic…badly constructed…and purposeless

Idiot’s Tale called human life on planet earth

into

the experience of

channeling Life

from the inside out

More Gratitude and Insights…

the miracle of each new day…

I’m at my window altar in a state of gratitude: I have a roof over my head; central air-conditioning; good food in my belly; clean, oxygenated water to drink; supplements, fresh fruit; organic chicken wings thawing out in the kitchen for the meal I’ll prepare when I get hungry again. Does it get any better? Can it get any better in this one moment of peace and fulfillment of my immediate needs?

Perhaps that is precisely what I need to learn by practice: staying in the NOW–in the one and only moment in which I am acutely aware of having all that I need for fullness of contentment and joy. If I move one second–one millimeter “ahead” into a “future,”I then experience deprivationlack...being in need of

flowers growing in the land of imagination…

So…therefore…if my sense of lack…of not having my needs met…is experienced only when I allow my mind/imagination to wander from the PRESENT NOW MOMENT into a “future time“: a non-three-dimensional space-time that only exists in my mind-imagination, then, the very sense of lack or need that I experience is too an illusion…as illusionary as the non-existent future created by my mental projections.

the intersecting worlds of mind-imagination…

at the border…

And so, today I make a conscious choice to discipline my mind-imagination, keeping it focused in the HERE-NOW; for the HERE-NOW  is the only reality of existence. I now choose to maintain a constant “frame of mind” that is focused on inner listening…on the goings-on of the internal world. It takes an almost superhuman effort to resist the fascination…the addiction to what is happening in the external world. It is with great effort that I will remain vigilant, roping in my forever wandering mind-imagination and returning it Home.

I am beginning to get a sense of how the mind-imagination…human consciousness–individually and collectively– creates a whole “universe” outside of where we truly exist…

There’s more to come…I sense it just at the border…

Awakening…Gratitude…

awakening…

It began with guilt. I could not summon up the energy–the will–to go out into this oppressive,  New York-in-August-heat to visit my ninety-two year old; “Alzheimer-ed” mother.

I do wish to do right by her instead of just being what she deserves–what she has sown.

Found myself forgiving her–again–for all of those things real and imagined that I’m still holding against her thus preventing the full influx of God Power.

I forgive you, mother. God forgives you. Forgive yourself and thus release your troubled soul–freeing it to journey back HOME where we shall surely meet again.

And in the next lifetime–should there be another lifetime for each or either of us–let us come together in peace, tolerance and love…

I release us both  from all that came before this awakening…

I release us to the Love of God.

celebration of gratitude…

I am so thankful that I am not the boss of this life

The I that I AM takes back control from the frightened, conditioned Ego…

This Ego that refuses to accept…to submit to Something Higher than Itself…

This Ego that has assigned Itself the role of directing  human consciousness

This Ego Who, with false Pride and Iron Hand maintains the illusion of personal control

 

Good-bye Pride…

Adios, Ego…

I bid you both adieu

As I bow down before

The Anointed One

Whom I am here to serve

As holy instrument and

Divine vehicle of Love…

An unsullied vessel through which

peace, light and healing may flow…

Blessing this life I call mine

Plus the lives of all…

In and out of the flesh

Whose energy touches mine

 

I hereby release all the deceptions, fear-based beliefs and

Conditioning of this world as I slowly and gratefully awaken to

Truth and Reality

Hanging On a Meat Rack in Hell

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Hanging On a Meat Rack in Hell

My last blog? February 2, 2012. And where have I been for more than a month? Hanging on a meat rack in hell!! Closeted away with all of my hidden fears, shadow selves and yucky, dark ugliness hidden in the corners of my heart. Face to face with my denials. The walls of all my false assumptions and constructs ruthlessly ripped down…exposing me to rooms within the temple of my being, of whose existence I was totally ignorant. Every ugly, feared circumstance and event bursting onto the stage of my life with a vengeance. Challenges at every turn. Dumb, blind, disabled.

But I hung on. I persevered, clinging steadfastly to that invisible hand that reached out to me from nowhere. I followed the path of my two feet as I moved blindly along in the darkness—sensing by faith alone the light before me. I refused to let that fundamental Fear which inhabits the very gut of humanity shake me loose from the Truth of my Being. And thus, I have walked out of hell back into the light of this glorious, pre-spring afternoon. Once again, I am free. I step gingerly into a new phase of this process of initiation. I move step by careful step…day by day back out into the world created by humanity. Ever cautious of remaining in it but not of it.

My journey to the underworld was not without great lessons and benefits. I now know without a doubt and from personal experience and not hearsay, that as long as this human-ego-personality-self continues to move through this third-dimensional realm totally committed to the authentic Driver of this flesh vehicle; with my heart and will surrendered to the Oars-Woman who rows this boat down the river of life—this life of mine shall unfold smoothly—from the inside out—with fewer side trips to Hades.

It is also becoming crystal clear that the hell in which I found myself hanging was created by my own thoughts and emotions. I am seeing that we create our individual and collective hells from an invisible, mysterious, obedient to our mental and emotional demandsGod-Stuff.” As I grow in understanding and acceptance of what iswhatever it isregardless of how I perceive it—all things ultimately work out for my highest good and the highest good of all whose lives intersect with mine. What is needed from me is simply acceptance, patience and a persevering steadfastness of spirit—in the face of all fear and doubt.

And so, I move forward this day consciously generating and discharging into my world, strong waves of gratitude and love. This I do every single time I become aware of thinking a thought and/or feeling a feeling. For thought-forms and feelings (i.e., e-motions or energy-in-motion) are the building blocks of our third dimensional, human reality. Thus, I am becoming a co-creator or facilitator in what is, in essence, a Divine—for lack of another word—process or experience of being in a human form within this “space” that we’ve named planet earth.

By offering myself up as a clear, empty instrument or vessel of so-called Divine Energy, I become one with IT—separated from this humanly constructed, fear-based reality—and in a constant and conscious state of AT-ONE-MENT.

Thus I wait in patient anticipation to see what glory unfolds next in, as and through this bubble-in-the Cosmic-Soup-that “i” am.

Filled With Something Grand…

I am filled with something so grand

I cannot put a name to it

More splendid than a rainbow

A joy embedded so deeply

Within my heart…

Within my being…

Radiating throughout my body

And as it passes through me

It leaves in its wake

A rush of deep gratitude…

A love that spills from my eyes…

I send it to you

Do you feel it?

Right there…radiating from your heart

Pass it on…

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