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Archive for January, 2016

Sweet Surrender…

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1-29-16 Photo by Toni Roberts

 

I

am

not

of

this world

but simply

in

it

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1 19 16 Photo by Toni Roberts

 

and

oh

how much more

I enjoy my experiences

from this

new

position

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the trick

however

is

to

stay

awake

and not permit myself

to

be

lulled back into

the world’s way of

   seeing…

not allow myself to be

lulled

asleep

   again

by the

sensuous

glamour

of

the

   flesh

and

return

to

the

living

of

this

life

as if the

dream

we are

jointly

dreaming

is

   reality…

O CRÂNIO ALONGADO DO POVO MANGBETU

Source: O CRÂNIO ALONGADO DO POVO MANGBETU

Spent All Day Photographing The River And…

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Photo by Toni Roberts 1/16/16

   weeping...

releasing deep pain

I didn’t know remained

      within

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Photo by Toni Roberts 1/16/16

probably brushing it aside

in prayer and meditation

   whenever it came up…

as if the release of psychic pain

   is not an ongoing job…

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Photo by Toni Roberts 1/16/16

   and so…

I have given myself this entire week

   OFF…

Saturday to Saturday

vacation

retreat

seclusion

no business

   no telephone calls…

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Photo by Toni Roberts 1/16/16

 

   just the

   river

   my

   tears…

and

this profound sense of

   mourning

for whom?

or what?

   can’t name it…

   only know that a part of me…

a

heavy load

I’ve carried deep within my heart

since the beginning of

   memory

   can now be released…

during this week of

vacation

retreat

   letting go...

this week of

   death…

and

    dying things

Crafting Away On A Rainy Saturday!

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New Year…New Life…New Way of Being…

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(photo by Toni Roberts)

I spent so many years of my life

turned outward

looking to the world for a way out of the

misery

of

existence…

searching outside of

Self

for the answers…

      for the solutions to life’s dilemmas…

   another job…

   in the classroom…

   out of the classroom…

   to the corporate world…

 no!

the non-profits!

back and forth up and down round and round

until finally

battered

beaten

bruised

   knocked down…but not out…

by stage 3 breast cancer

   I gave up…

   gave in…

surrendered

to

WHATEVER IT IS

THAT

CAUSED ME INTO

BEING

   in the first place…

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(photo by Toni Roberts)

  and since then…

IT and i

   have been caught up in a loving embrace…

totally and completely

   AT-ONE…

 

i have relinquished the lead

and now follow that

   Inner Directive…

   right out of the box of the past…

into a new year

a new life

   a new way of being

Happy 2016 to one and all!

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