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I
am
not
of
this world
but simply
in
it
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and
oh
how much more
I enjoy my experiences
from this
new
position
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the trick
however
is
to
stay
awake
and not permit myself
to
be
lulled back into
the world’s way of
seeing…
not allow myself to be
lulled
asleep
again
by the
sensuous
glamour
of
the
flesh
and
return
to
the
living
of
this
life
as if the
dream
we are
jointly
dreaming
is
reality…
Photo by Toni Roberts 1/16/16
weeping...
releasing deep pain
I didn’t know remained
within…
Photo by Toni Roberts 1/16/16
probably brushing it aside
in prayer and meditation
whenever it came up…
as if the release of psychic pain
is not an ongoing job…
Photo by Toni Roberts 1/16/16
and so…
I have given myself this entire week
OFF…
Saturday to Saturday
vacation
retreat
seclusion
no business
no telephone calls…
Photo by Toni Roberts 1/16/16
just the
river…
my
tears…
and
this profound sense of
mourning…
for whom?
or what?
can’t name it…
only know that a part of me…
a
heavy load
I’ve carried deep within my heart
since the beginning of
memory…
can now be released…
during this week of
vacation
retreat
letting go...
this week of
death…
and
dying things…
(photo by Toni Roberts)
I spent so many years of my life
turned outward
looking to the world for a way out of the
misery
of
existence…
searching outside of
Self
for the answers…
for the solutions to life’s dilemmas…
another job…
in the classroom…
out of the classroom…
to the corporate world…
no!
the non-profits!
back and forth up and down round and round
until finally
battered
beaten
bruised
knocked down…but not out…
by stage 3 breast cancer
I gave up…
gave in…
surrendered
to
WHATEVER IT IS
THAT
CAUSED ME INTO
BEING
in the first place…
(photo by Toni Roberts)
and since then…
IT and i
have been caught up in a loving embrace…
totally and completely
AT-ONE…
i have relinquished the lead
and now follow that
Inner Directive…
right out of the box of the past…
into a new year
a new life
a new way of being…
Happy 2016 to one and all!
