Journal Entries: 3/1/08 through 3/4/08
I will continue putting one foot before the other and see what happens in my life. I will stop obsessing over the where, why, how, who and when of whatever is to come next in this life or body. I release all concern, as in “take no thought,” for money, health or the future.
I am, of course, curious about what will unfold in this experience of being. I, however, accept what is here-now and the fact that I simply do not know what is going on in the “Mind of God.” (Human language is so limiting. That is the closest I can come to in naming that Unnameable, that Unknowable Mystery that I feel within me; underpinning this life, this reality though which I am moving.) All I do know, from that same deep place of feeling that does not appear on x-rays or MRI’s, is that in the final analysis, it is my obsession with the illusion of control that has gotten me in this pickle in the first place. My intelligence now supports the release of the illusion that I am in control of anything beyond the choice to follow the voices of the world or that one strong inaudible voice emanating from within the depths of my Soul or Essential Self.
And so, I accept that the time has come for me to let go and let this “God” do whatever it is that “God” is doing with this life and body that indeed belong to IT: The One Creator of All There Is.
Impressions from Today’s Meditation:
Stayed in the peace…the stillness…the Silence for a while; recharging my batteries; receiving the wherewithal to again enter the world and take care of pressing financial matters that I must take care if—like it or not—ready or not. I am ready for money to begin to flow easily and abundantly. I do believe that abundance is the truth of reality and that need and want are the results of errors in human thinking—in our basic beliefs about who and what we are. We are ignorant of the fact that we humans are limited. True freedom is conditioned upon the degree of one’s submission to That Which Caused Us into Being.
Mantrum for the Day (Repeated silently every time I become aware of thinking.):
Money flows to me easily and abundantly. I spend it with wisdom and have plenty left over to spare and to share. I Thank You, Supplier and Source of all that I need for fullness and fulfillment of life and self.
Insight about Money:
My Self is now leading me through this experience in order for me to move through self-created obstacles in my Money House.
I know that these challenging financial experiences are related and, the way in which I resolve or move through them, will determine the quality of my future relationship with money. The future flow of abundance or lack thereof, in the form of money, is now being determined by my current choices, beliefs, decisions and actions revolving around my finances and the money that now passes through my hands and checking account.
This is, indeed, an opportunity for me to resolve the crystallization surrounding MONEY and its liquidity—its flow through my life: in and out…like the breath. And like the breath this flow is life sustaining; for in this physical realm, money is as essential as the breath, to the sustenance of human life.
Money is merely another form of Spirit. And I am now in the process of unclogging that channel. It does not matter how it got blocked. What does matter is that I continue with this unblocking experience. Deeper understanding will come.